Dreammare
no matter what the dreams, invariably they find me. They are horrid things, so vividly clear. I shouldn't call them dreams but they are not purely nightmares either. Sure they are mostly nightmares but they have good moments, much as life is, perhaps thats why they seems so real. They happen mostly in the day. And unlike normal dreams, these i remember forever, i can remember the last 10 that i've had, and i have a feeling i always will. I am completely myself in this most recent one, i was with someone i love, holding them waiting for my mother to come home. It was eerily just the way today was before i fell asleep. Then time seemed to speed by and i was at a different place close to our "house" (the place i live or reside always seems to change in my dreams while the people i know always stay the same and i know some people even though i don't know them yet in real life) There were police there although everyone in this dream was in a younger form of themselves with the exception of my lover from earlier and I. The police were also friends as if that wasn't odd, although it isn't against my nature to befriend an actual person who just happens to be a cop. They warned me of a friend of mine that lived down the road they said to stay away and i remember wanting to caution him of what might happen. I went into their house and they had plenty of dogs, it seemed i knew the dogs by name. I remember looking at the clock and instantly throwing a fit because i had missed the time my mother was supposed to get home which was around 3 and it was now 8 or 9 pm. Then time shifted and i was back at my "residence" my grandmother was here (her age also had not changed) and we argued for no apparent reason as we sometimes do. She actually physically injured me although she never in real life has. My mother arrived finally and then i had two siblings all of a sudden which seemed very natural and i seemed to know them as well. They accompanied us to my mothers "house" which was also right down the street. As we waited for mother to do whatever it was she was to do i remember i found a little doll a leprechaun and although i didn't immediately know why i knew we had to be rid of it. But no matter how i tried the doll would not be banished in any way. It started to rain as i tried in vain to get rid of the doll by all means, the roof started to leak, the storm got worse. The walls were caving in as we ran for the car, and as i looked into the dolls eyes they seemed to move and i wrenched myself back into reality and awoke with a start. I remembered clearly only after awakening that the leprechaun doll has been a frequent thing in my dreams.