Waiting in a dream

[gayblade139]

life...is it ever going to move on
is it going to continue to remain motionless
i am swept up by the fathomless porportion of my problems
and yet i have all the solutions set, all i do is wait for the right time to use them
however that time never seems to come
i'm taking another big step and yet if feels as though i'm not moving at all
nobody has time anymore
selfish and self centered are the people i once thought i knew
yeah people change but not always for the better
and although i feel as though i am a broken record, how many times must i say i feel lost
lost and forgotten, utterly non-existent, bitterly passed by,
unto the ends of this wretched earth i will search for my fate,
i only fear i will certainly die before i find it
i want to go far away and never come back,
if only i didn't have so many ties binding me... if only anything i wanted to do didn't take so fucking long
impatience has always been a flaw of mine...
i'm losing faith, time, health, it seems that i have nothing more to lose, but somehow i know things could be worse
its just so hard to look at things from an outside perspective, when i'm so caught up in the center