wow this is sad:
"I regret deleting all those entries, it's like erasing memories.
Everything feels so empty without him here. It feels like he was non-existent, just a dream, he was never really there and never was real. it in fact feels like im non existent, just a thought of some one else. a ghost restlessly waiting in a house for their long lost love to come home, but never does. everything feeling dull and lifeless. even to hear his voice, would give me some shimmer of life and hope. i think i took him for gran it, despite my fierce love for him. three more days, and he'll be here. it's like ive been telling myself that for what seems like eternity, it feels like forever. but what if he found someone better, someone to give him love or lust more fierce then my own? what if things changed, and i'll be doomed to my own hell for the rest of eternity? he has my heart in his hands, and it's his choice to do what he wants with it."
lmao, lmao. look how paranoid i was like back in october.. that was such petty shit compared to everything that happend recently.
i'm making a new livejournal.. this one is DONE. for good.
Everything feels so empty without him here. It feels like he was non-existent, just a dream, he was never really there and never was real. it in fact feels like im non existent, just a thought of some one else. a ghost restlessly waiting in a house for their long lost love to come home, but never does. everything feeling dull and lifeless. even to hear his voice, would give me some shimmer of life and hope. i think i took him for gran it, despite my fierce love for him. three more days, and he'll be here. it's like ive been telling myself that for what seems like eternity, it feels like forever. but what if he found someone better, someone to give him love or lust more fierce then my own? what if things changed, and i'll be doomed to my own hell for the rest of eternity? he has my heart in his hands, and it's his choice to do what he wants with it."
lmao, lmao. look how paranoid i was like back in october.. that was such petty shit compared to everything that happend recently.
i'm making a new livejournal.. this one is DONE. for good.