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I don't know why, I guess I have some crazy illusion that there might actually be somebody reading this who wants to know what's been going on with me. Not that my friends don't care, but if I hang out with somebody in real life then they already know!
Bliss. That is the best way for me to describe my situation. Now, not saying that my life is all sunshine and lollipops. My financial situation is kinda crap right now, but I get my bills paid on time so what do I care about that? Not just my bills but other people's bills too. Most of my stress comes from taking care of someone who should be perfectly capable of taking care of themselves. If I wanted a child, I'd get pregnant and have a baby, not adopt a 27 year-old!! Now this is going to sound awfully resentful if I keep going, and I don't want it to seem like that. I love her to death, I know she's an awesome person and can do so much better but I'm just kinda fed up with bearing her financial and emotional burdens. The turning point in my life was when I realized that I am the master of my own universe and I am solely responsible for my happiness, reality, and destiny. Once I realized that everything changed for the better. I just wish she could see it too. But yeah, I'm done with that, I'm not going to be in this living situation in a few months, which is how I come to the bliss part.
It's been nine and a half months now and Miguel and I have decided that the time has come to get our own place together. We have been talking about our future constantly and we have decided that the best thing for us to get started on our path to success is to minimize our expenses and get our own cozy little nook together. We make better roommates with each other than anyone we've ever lived with before and we're crazy madly deeply in love with each other so it makes sense. He is the one for me, he makes all the sappy sayings and songs finally make sense, before this I never knew true love. I couldn't ask for more and I couldn't be happier. The whole world could be turning to shit around us and all that matters is that we have each other and we can get ourselves out of any crappy situation if we do it together. I've never been with anyone where it wasn't just a romance, but an alliance and partnership. I feel like we can take on the world together. I am so excited about our future, like never before. Every day is a gift and a blessing.
Well, I could wax ecstatic forever but I really do have better things to do. This will probably be my last entry for a long time because I much prefer reality to the cyberworld and strangely I don't feel like I have much to write about when everything is going great.
Oh yeah before I go I'll tell the funny story of why I'm not working this week. The other day I was trying to fix a bong and I couldn't do it so Miguel was trying for me. I was getting ready to leave for work when I hear him shout "fuck!" so I go into the room to see what was going on and promptly pierce the sole of my foot on a very large piece of broken glass. Miguel had already run downstairs to dress his own wound so when I let out a bloodcurdling shreik he came bolting upstairs to see what was wrong. I had pulled out the glass shard and I was bleeding more than I have ever seen in my life so needless to say I was screaming, crying, shaking and generally flipping out. I couldn't walk so what does he do? He picks me up and carries me downstairs! I was so scared of falling but he didn't drop me. He laid me on the couch and cleaned and dressed the wound for me once it stopped bleeding because I was still flipping out. It was so sweet! The whole time he was still bleeding from his own cut but it didn't matter. I love him so much.
Bliss. That is the best way for me to describe my situation. Now, not saying that my life is all sunshine and lollipops. My financial situation is kinda crap right now, but I get my bills paid on time so what do I care about that? Not just my bills but other people's bills too. Most of my stress comes from taking care of someone who should be perfectly capable of taking care of themselves. If I wanted a child, I'd get pregnant and have a baby, not adopt a 27 year-old!! Now this is going to sound awfully resentful if I keep going, and I don't want it to seem like that. I love her to death, I know she's an awesome person and can do so much better but I'm just kinda fed up with bearing her financial and emotional burdens. The turning point in my life was when I realized that I am the master of my own universe and I am solely responsible for my happiness, reality, and destiny. Once I realized that everything changed for the better. I just wish she could see it too. But yeah, I'm done with that, I'm not going to be in this living situation in a few months, which is how I come to the bliss part.
It's been nine and a half months now and Miguel and I have decided that the time has come to get our own place together. We have been talking about our future constantly and we have decided that the best thing for us to get started on our path to success is to minimize our expenses and get our own cozy little nook together. We make better roommates with each other than anyone we've ever lived with before and we're crazy madly deeply in love with each other so it makes sense. He is the one for me, he makes all the sappy sayings and songs finally make sense, before this I never knew true love. I couldn't ask for more and I couldn't be happier. The whole world could be turning to shit around us and all that matters is that we have each other and we can get ourselves out of any crappy situation if we do it together. I've never been with anyone where it wasn't just a romance, but an alliance and partnership. I feel like we can take on the world together. I am so excited about our future, like never before. Every day is a gift and a blessing.
Well, I could wax ecstatic forever but I really do have better things to do. This will probably be my last entry for a long time because I much prefer reality to the cyberworld and strangely I don't feel like I have much to write about when everything is going great.
Oh yeah before I go I'll tell the funny story of why I'm not working this week. The other day I was trying to fix a bong and I couldn't do it so Miguel was trying for me. I was getting ready to leave for work when I hear him shout "fuck!" so I go into the room to see what was going on and promptly pierce the sole of my foot on a very large piece of broken glass. Miguel had already run downstairs to dress his own wound so when I let out a bloodcurdling shreik he came bolting upstairs to see what was wrong. I had pulled out the glass shard and I was bleeding more than I have ever seen in my life so needless to say I was screaming, crying, shaking and generally flipping out. I couldn't walk so what does he do? He picks me up and carries me downstairs! I was so scared of falling but he didn't drop me. He laid me on the couch and cleaned and dressed the wound for me once it stopped bleeding because I was still flipping out. It was so sweet! The whole time he was still bleeding from his own cut but it didn't matter. I love him so much.