Why Do I Do It?
Why can't I just trust that others will be there for me, and not think they're not going to care - like if I ask for a lift home they're not going to let me down.
So, last week, when I thought my friend wasn't going to drive me home and I walked home, it turned out they'd all wondered where I got to. I feel embarrassed that I can't be more trusting and realise people don't not think about me.
Also, I had a disturbing dream last night. It all seemed to involve me hearing weird laughing/cackling noises when one of my friends was around; he didn't seem to hear them, and they were really creepy. This somehow led me to ring the "Vatican hotline" and this seemed to lead to us all agreeing that his young son was the Anti Christ.
It turned out in the dream that the father was my best mate, and when I was trying to sort out the Anti Christ issue he appeared in my flat and started strangling me, morphing into his true form, which was of course Satan. I was glad to wake up from that one.
So, last week, when I thought my friend wasn't going to drive me home and I walked home, it turned out they'd all wondered where I got to. I feel embarrassed that I can't be more trusting and realise people don't not think about me.
Also, I had a disturbing dream last night. It all seemed to involve me hearing weird laughing/cackling noises when one of my friends was around; he didn't seem to hear them, and they were really creepy. This somehow led me to ring the "Vatican hotline" and this seemed to lead to us all agreeing that his young son was the Anti Christ.
It turned out in the dream that the father was my best mate, and when I was trying to sort out the Anti Christ issue he appeared in my flat and started strangling me, morphing into his true form, which was of course Satan. I was glad to wake up from that one.