Confession Time
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
*Deep breath*
I stopped reading messages in my Livejournal inbox a long time ago, because I am scared of what messages I might find. It is partly because I have a fear that any message I receive will be from Xxetrof (the troll who harassed me on GameFAQs for no good reason); he sent me a message a few years ago that was very abusive - it was all about telling me to go kill myself and similar things.
I also have a fear that messages I receive will contain a severe telling off from my Livejournal friends over things I have said in my journal. Plus, I have occasionally had messages telling me that someone I did not know contacted me. The first time was right after I got shirty with someone in a photography community for saying some soup I made looked “unappetising”- so, I figured they would be flaming or scolding me; the second was right after a long rant I made over the Occupy London protests, presumably from a very left wing person who happened to read it and who was not pleased.
I have been quite scared of conflict with lj-friends, so in the past I have occasionally not read comments I received, and I think it contributed to the breakdown in my friendship with Gina; she kept going on about “did you read the comment I made in your 100 movies topic?”- I was afraid because I had made reference to some strongly worded thread I made called “Clark Kent SUCKS” - basically apologising for saying it (that thread got five comments, which I assumed would be others getting mad at me), and I assumed any comments on the second topic would be people telling me off again.
It’s because of all this cowardice that if I can’t face what others are going to say, I tend to block comments on the threads that I think could get an angry response (just for the record, using other threads to comment on the threads I blocked comments on will not go down well); I even lock up topics if I think a flamewar could be brewing. I have a tendency to retailiate angrily if I think people are getting combative with me - it was the reason I could not stay friends with that Nightfall guy; I swear he didn’t even like me at all, and he seemed to friend me just so he could criticise my views that I expressed - so I defriended him.
Okay, that was a bit of an essay. I hope we can all stay friends after this confession.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
*Deep breath*
I stopped reading messages in my Livejournal inbox a long time ago, because I am scared of what messages I might find. It is partly because I have a fear that any message I receive will be from Xxetrof (the troll who harassed me on GameFAQs for no good reason); he sent me a message a few years ago that was very abusive - it was all about telling me to go kill myself and similar things.
I also have a fear that messages I receive will contain a severe telling off from my Livejournal friends over things I have said in my journal. Plus, I have occasionally had messages telling me that someone I did not know contacted me. The first time was right after I got shirty with someone in a photography community for saying some soup I made looked “unappetising”- so, I figured they would be flaming or scolding me; the second was right after a long rant I made over the Occupy London protests, presumably from a very left wing person who happened to read it and who was not pleased.
I have been quite scared of conflict with lj-friends, so in the past I have occasionally not read comments I received, and I think it contributed to the breakdown in my friendship with Gina; she kept going on about “did you read the comment I made in your 100 movies topic?”- I was afraid because I had made reference to some strongly worded thread I made called “Clark Kent SUCKS” - basically apologising for saying it (that thread got five comments, which I assumed would be others getting mad at me), and I assumed any comments on the second topic would be people telling me off again.
It’s because of all this cowardice that if I can’t face what others are going to say, I tend to block comments on the threads that I think could get an angry response (just for the record, using other threads to comment on the threads I blocked comments on will not go down well); I even lock up topics if I think a flamewar could be brewing. I have a tendency to retailiate angrily if I think people are getting combative with me - it was the reason I could not stay friends with that Nightfall guy; I swear he didn’t even like me at all, and he seemed to friend me just so he could criticise my views that I expressed - so I defriended him.
Okay, that was a bit of an essay. I hope we can all stay friends after this confession.