most of the time i die trying

[gavino3885]

I have always felt that i was valued by my loved ones but now i feel like i am nothing. I feel sad. I want my loved ones to care for me. I care for them so i feel odd asking for their care. Shouldnt it just be there. Why do i have to be dying to get some consolation. Maybe it is my but right now i know not of my worth. In my eyes, i see no value. I

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Re: Why die trying?

[gavino3885]

how very insightful... i wonder whom this is. For i assume you have not been around me much lately. A distant person or so to speak. Next time i implore you to wn your words of advice. I may heed them more swiftly. But i am a very busy person. in fact in October i nearly worked myself into the ground. I work 35+ hours a week, put in alot of rehearsal hours with Olivia, I am a Spanish tutor, I have classes to go to, a home to keep up, and friends to support out of the kindness of my heart. but i refuse to live life not experiencing emotions. I will not deny myself sadness. Everyone gets sad from time to time and i will not prolong my sadness but i will experience it. I own my emotions and i take responsibility for them. I am there for people in there sadness. I am not repelled by sadness. Maybe everone else is but if there is something in my power to give comfort and aid to someone inneed i will do it. I will not put on a happy face if i am not happy. I will deal with the emotion that makes me sad and get over it. I dont have to act confident I AM CONFIDENT. And for the record i know this problem that got me sad will effect me 5 years from now.
Nevertheless i appreciate the love and care you have put into this comment and i can only speculate whomthis is but i thank you. I will take what you said to heart and know it was sent out of love. But my life is not ALL negativity...there are 2 sides to this coin. And trust me when i am hapy i am happy and when i am sad i dont run from it, i am sad until i deal and become happy.