this bitter euphoria
Some days i wake up and it's like "Why me?"... and then i have what i call "Aimee Days" ... days where i wake up and i feel so euphoric... so complete, that nothing, can bring me down. Aimee is the reason for my euphoria. hence the name "Aimee Days".
She's sleeping now. About 1 - 2 feet away from me. her angelic face pressed against my pillow as she lays snuggled between the covers, her arm covering half of her face, a smile emerging.
Seeing her like this makes my heart skip a beat. I could watch it for hours on end, but if i did that I would get to hold her in my arms even less. So i sit and anticipate the moment when she awakens and greets me with a kiss.
5:00: Contemplated whether i should watch her some more, or wake her up to hold her in my arms
5:01: Woke her up and fucked her brains out and then i held her in my arms.
It feels so good to have a reason to live for once in my life.