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time for an update...
i think i'll start off heavy, and work my way to something lighthearted...
the past year has been very enlightening... something happened this weekend that has changed many a perspective for quite a few people, i'm not going to go into the details, but if you know me or some of my friends, then you'll know exactly what i'm talking about... keep those around you in your thoughts, especially the ones you hold closest to your heart... there are many times when i've taken my friends for granted, not understood their true value to me, and lost them because i was too stupid to hang on and realize what they meant to me...
(this is going to sound retarded, but) my horoscope's been talking about a change that has been happening to me over the past few months, and i think it's finally come to a head... the past year or two, i've been a mad hermit, hiding out in my apartment all the time, not really wanting to see or hang out with anyone... i've always been a people person... i have been the rock for a few people over the years... the person everyone turns to... things have changed, and i look back now and don't like how it looks... my best friend in the whole world lives an hour and a half away and i only see her once every few months...
now for the update part... i've been looking for change for a while now... i don't like having a stale life, really, i don't... i don't want a boyfriend that needs to have threesomes or more to have spice in the relationship... i want someone i can come home to and think "i've got the perfect boyfriend"... i realize that now... i've got many "friends" but very few FRIENDS... that's a very important distinction... my FRIENDS listened to me when i had a panic attack, paid attention and gave advice when i was upset, and laughed at whatever lame ass jokes i told... my "friends" told me they didn't want to hear it anymore, turned their shoulder when i needed them most... i think the only thing that's stayed constant this whole time is that i truly love my career, which i've been planning since i was like, 2... on that note, with this full time job i'm working, i know that when i pay my bills, i don't have to worry if i'll be able to affford the next meal and pay the next bill... i'm through with stonewall. nuff said.
honestly, i think the time of being a hermit is really over... i like where my life is going now, and i think it's about time... i miss my old self, i miss my FRIENDS... i miss people... if that really makes sense :)
and now, for the lighthearted part...
all in all, and this is going to sound very conceited, with all that's going on, but for once i'm happy... happy with my life
my heart goes out to all those that are affected by what's going on, and if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to yell at or talk to, give me a call or shoot me a message... much love
i think i'll start off heavy, and work my way to something lighthearted...
the past year has been very enlightening... something happened this weekend that has changed many a perspective for quite a few people, i'm not going to go into the details, but if you know me or some of my friends, then you'll know exactly what i'm talking about... keep those around you in your thoughts, especially the ones you hold closest to your heart... there are many times when i've taken my friends for granted, not understood their true value to me, and lost them because i was too stupid to hang on and realize what they meant to me...
(this is going to sound retarded, but) my horoscope's been talking about a change that has been happening to me over the past few months, and i think it's finally come to a head... the past year or two, i've been a mad hermit, hiding out in my apartment all the time, not really wanting to see or hang out with anyone... i've always been a people person... i have been the rock for a few people over the years... the person everyone turns to... things have changed, and i look back now and don't like how it looks... my best friend in the whole world lives an hour and a half away and i only see her once every few months...
now for the update part... i've been looking for change for a while now... i don't like having a stale life, really, i don't... i don't want a boyfriend that needs to have threesomes or more to have spice in the relationship... i want someone i can come home to and think "i've got the perfect boyfriend"... i realize that now... i've got many "friends" but very few FRIENDS... that's a very important distinction... my FRIENDS listened to me when i had a panic attack, paid attention and gave advice when i was upset, and laughed at whatever lame ass jokes i told... my "friends" told me they didn't want to hear it anymore, turned their shoulder when i needed them most... i think the only thing that's stayed constant this whole time is that i truly love my career, which i've been planning since i was like, 2... on that note, with this full time job i'm working, i know that when i pay my bills, i don't have to worry if i'll be able to affford the next meal and pay the next bill... i'm through with stonewall. nuff said.
honestly, i think the time of being a hermit is really over... i like where my life is going now, and i think it's about time... i miss my old self, i miss my FRIENDS... i miss people... if that really makes sense :)
and now, for the lighthearted part...
all in all, and this is going to sound very conceited, with all that's going on, but for once i'm happy... happy with my life
my heart goes out to all those that are affected by what's going on, and if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to yell at or talk to, give me a call or shoot me a message... much love