*through good or bad I've loved them all*
Lynn, Ryon, and Nina... you will be sent gifts as soon as I can think of what to send you.
I am growing up. I am becoming my own person.
1. I came to the decision that no matter how much ICC has destroyed my desire to go to school... I am going to continue my education after I finally leave there. Getting (at least) my bachelor's degree has meant far too much to me. I am not going to let my experiences at this rediculous excuse for a school ruin that for me.
2. A lot has been happening in the theatre. I know there are people who expect me to stand with them against what is happening. The problem is... I honestly just don't know if I give a damn. I have felt abandoned by this program for the past year and a half. Am I really going to put my neck on the line for it now? For teachers that barely pay attention to me? (Although, deep down, I do still like them.) For a program that has nearly made me hate what used to give me more joy than anything else on earth? For a program that I am leaving in less than a year? But at the same time... I am still supposed to be a part of it. I am supposed to care, right?
3. While I have determined that I will go on with school... I still have not felt any feelings of excitement about any particular school. I am not really as sold on Chicago as I once was. But Southern Illinois? Gross. Heh. One of Josh's roommates told me that VCU has a good arts program... but then again, how much do I want to move to Virginia? (Visits would be good. But to live there? I am not sure...) I don't know. Maybe Western? I don't even know much about it. But it would mean not living at home. Ugh. I just want someone to point to a college and tell me to do what it takes to get there.
There is more. A lot more. But that is more than enough for now.
I am growing up. I am becoming my own person.
1. I came to the decision that no matter how much ICC has destroyed my desire to go to school... I am going to continue my education after I finally leave there. Getting (at least) my bachelor's degree has meant far too much to me. I am not going to let my experiences at this rediculous excuse for a school ruin that for me.
2. A lot has been happening in the theatre. I know there are people who expect me to stand with them against what is happening. The problem is... I honestly just don't know if I give a damn. I have felt abandoned by this program for the past year and a half. Am I really going to put my neck on the line for it now? For teachers that barely pay attention to me? (Although, deep down, I do still like them.) For a program that has nearly made me hate what used to give me more joy than anything else on earth? For a program that I am leaving in less than a year? But at the same time... I am still supposed to be a part of it. I am supposed to care, right?
3. While I have determined that I will go on with school... I still have not felt any feelings of excitement about any particular school. I am not really as sold on Chicago as I once was. But Southern Illinois? Gross. Heh. One of Josh's roommates told me that VCU has a good arts program... but then again, how much do I want to move to Virginia? (Visits would be good. But to live there? I am not sure...) I don't know. Maybe Western? I don't even know much about it. But it would mean not living at home. Ugh. I just want someone to point to a college and tell me to do what it takes to get there.
There is more. A lot more. But that is more than enough for now.