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Why should I hide my feelings? Why should I just write good things in here and then bad things in my other journal?
I woke up realizing that i've had a peice of bread and a 3 bites for soup in the past 3 days and my stomach hurt so bad that I just curled up in a ball. I had to pee since last night but when my heart breaks nothing seems that important around you. I don't even feel like eating and it's bad timing to. I'm not starving myself, that's lame. I just wasn't hungry for the past two days and now I am and now I am so upset that I can't eat. Because I have this problem with loving people, trusting them, and just blocking out the bad. You know when you went into the basement with me I was like, Michele she's straight. I don't know why I thought that but I did. And I had this sinking feeling in my stomach because I knew you were straight but you weren't acting like it.
I don't want my brother and his wife and kids to come over. I want to go be emo in my room and listen to some hateful music and scream with it and feel sorry for myself.
People have it a lot worse then me.
I woke up realizing that i've had a peice of bread and a 3 bites for soup in the past 3 days and my stomach hurt so bad that I just curled up in a ball. I had to pee since last night but when my heart breaks nothing seems that important around you. I don't even feel like eating and it's bad timing to. I'm not starving myself, that's lame. I just wasn't hungry for the past two days and now I am and now I am so upset that I can't eat. Because I have this problem with loving people, trusting them, and just blocking out the bad. You know when you went into the basement with me I was like, Michele she's straight. I don't know why I thought that but I did. And I had this sinking feeling in my stomach because I knew you were straight but you weren't acting like it.
I don't want my brother and his wife and kids to come over. I want to go be emo in my room and listen to some hateful music and scream with it and feel sorry for myself.
People have it a lot worse then me.