lonely teardrop

[gaurashakti]

i am deficient in so many ways,
does not mean that i am not able to love.
the peices continue to fall,
does not mean that it will never work.
not one tear has been shed out of true care
for as far back as i can remember,
does not mean that i now lack that ability.
the tears come at night,
in isolation... with the lights off,
so that noone can hear the hurt manifest,
does not mean that i can never express to you what is inside..
ive tried to repair the disaster that i have gotten myself into,
but i'm not strong enough to do it on my own.
deficeiency blinds me,
the peices continue to fall,
the tears come, as i watch myself drown in an ocean of greif.
all of this has been very humbling
to recognize that i am dependent on you.
i can no longer remain a lonely teardrop.
please provide me with everything that i need
to put an end to stabbing myself in the back
at every step.