solitary
working on internal matters in a solitary setting gave me the opportunity to face aspects of my persona that may have taken years to overcome had i been submersed in association. it would have been very easy to replace one social setting with another. i am grateful to have avoided that, however the dark aspect of solitary life produced unwanted outcomes that are difficult to cope with at times. those difficulties demonstrate that there is a certain aspect of myself that can only be fulfilled by others. not just any old person, but only those unique individuals who put effort into discovering the mysteries that drive us to search for love and happiness. a refreshing realization to say the least... i learned a lot from the time in my life where i was socially silent. now the tides are turning, as so many of those unique individuals enter my myth, my life script. they breathe life into a story that was turning stale and dry.