on realizations,self expression, ideas and consistency
the words to explain what is on my mind... in my heart, often escape me. they dissipate from my mind like a cloud of smoke, before i get the opportunity to scramble them down. the remains of each passing thought... a slight reflection of the original... a mere shadow of realization which seems to fade. and occasionally reappear. just as if someone were dangling a carrot in front of my face. this causes a failure to express myself in an efficient manner, often leading to a breakdown in communication, ending in frustration. opportunity to make something out of my life and time as a human being become static. most ideas seem to stem from a similar dimension of my psyche as emotions do... they last for a portion of time, inspire me to act or think in a certain way, and as new ideas (or emotions) are brought forth in my ever changing situation, i discard the old ones. i change my ideas like i change my clothes, rather than build on what i have learned. i neglect consistency in all respects, and because of this i am left insecure and in constant search for fulfillment. however practical experience provides me with the evidence that to take up the path of consistency will quench my thirst for fulfillment, and render a sense of security. through consistently building on ideas and realizations, realizations and ideas will become consistent... my focus will gradually become fixed. self expression... increased communication will arise naturally. through the example of those who have accomplished consistency, and the shadow of this truth experienced in my own life, even a blind fool such as myself can percieve the reality of its outcome. therefore i wholeheartedly embrace the path of consistency as a means to realize my true self.