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Not Better. IGNORE
SAD
Once upon a time, I was a person. But I had an ignorant family and no support so I went off to college clueless. And though I did complete my degree, I am from Ohio, so I had to have a car. And there was no way I could live somewhere, work, go to school, and keep a car on the road. I lacked the knowledge and hand strength to maintain a car. This is common of women in rural areas with no other transportation, in america. In America we lack nonprivate transportation. I was too stupid to move to new york city.
Before much time passed a dude asked ne to marry him. And that seemed like a good deal, because in Ohio he made more money than me and he knew how to fix cars. The good deal lasted exactly six months and then he raped me on our wedding night, or something approximate. And then it was too late.
The husband came with a six year d and an ex wife who hated his guts. And I had to take care of the six year old sometimes, and he never appreciated that I did, although he expected me to do it. So I did it for her benefit, and she grew upto hate us both, as adolescents do.
Are you catching on to how stupid I am? Because ten years later he cajoled me to have a baby with him. And I was still stupid. And within a few years I realized he did it to trap me with him forever, which it has, because I can never leave because that would make me a BAD MOTHER. But I cannot leave, because I feel too guilty to rob my son of his father and/or 2parent family. And I can't kill myself because that would leave my helpless child with his horrible father. But I can't kill my child AND myself, because I cannot kill my child.
THERE IS NO WAY OUT
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