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Seems like all I do is bitch about school anymore. Guess that's what my life has become. Feel free to sail on by if it's not your cup of tea.
I'm exhausted. I can't believe what this program is doing to me. And no, I'm not blaming the program per se. I'm more upset with myself. I spent hours yesterday and and the wee hours of this morning studying for a big Blood Bank test this morning. By the time I was dressed, I was nauseated and couldn't stomach the thought of breakfast. Made it to school and got sweats and shakes. And no, it wasn't my blood sugar. It was all nerves. Over a damn test.
The good news is it's another 100 for me! The bad new is I totally stressed myself out and then crammed for a Hematology test that was this afternoon (97 on that) and had tons to do for that class. By the time I got home LATE this afternoon, my stomach was a wreck and I've spent most of the evening back and forth from the bathroom while trying to study for a Clinical Chem test tomorrow! Oh, and a Blood Bank quiz will be coming first thing in the morning as well. OMG! I can't take it!
I'm not going to survive this semester if I can't get a grip on my stress. I'm totally freaking myself out over everything. And I don't know how to relax or let it go. Also, my sleep is ruined because of the combination of stress and the fact that Craig is not here this week. I never sleep as well when he's not here on any given day, let alone add all this one there.
I kept waking up last night like every 30 minutes in a panic and disoriented (wondering what time it was, how long I had been asleep, all that jazz). So I'm so tired now I don't know what to do.
I'm about to crawl into bed and hope that I can get through tomorrow and figure out some way to decompress this weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't let it go.
I'm exhausted. I can't believe what this program is doing to me. And no, I'm not blaming the program per se. I'm more upset with myself. I spent hours yesterday and and the wee hours of this morning studying for a big Blood Bank test this morning. By the time I was dressed, I was nauseated and couldn't stomach the thought of breakfast. Made it to school and got sweats and shakes. And no, it wasn't my blood sugar. It was all nerves. Over a damn test.
The good news is it's another 100 for me! The bad new is I totally stressed myself out and then crammed for a Hematology test that was this afternoon (97 on that) and had tons to do for that class. By the time I got home LATE this afternoon, my stomach was a wreck and I've spent most of the evening back and forth from the bathroom while trying to study for a Clinical Chem test tomorrow! Oh, and a Blood Bank quiz will be coming first thing in the morning as well. OMG! I can't take it!
I'm not going to survive this semester if I can't get a grip on my stress. I'm totally freaking myself out over everything. And I don't know how to relax or let it go. Also, my sleep is ruined because of the combination of stress and the fact that Craig is not here this week. I never sleep as well when he's not here on any given day, let alone add all this one there.
I kept waking up last night like every 30 minutes in a panic and disoriented (wondering what time it was, how long I had been asleep, all that jazz). So I'm so tired now I don't know what to do.
I'm about to crawl into bed and hope that I can get through tomorrow and figure out some way to decompress this weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't let it go.