screaming at the top of my longs....
i hate this-"my life," and as the days go buy i ask myself more and more if it's really all worth it, is it? i mean you strive so much and try and overcome these battles, and at the end of the day when you ask yourself for what, what do i do all of this? you really dont have a true answer, and everything you do really doesn't make you happy. im so disappointed, not just with myself but with so many people surrouding me. i have to smile and pretend that im 'okay,' that everything is just fine but it's not. now more than ever things are not 'okay.' people say i have so much going for me but nothing seems to matter to me. im scared im jepordizing so much and later i will regret it but i can't help what i feel and thats nothing. i feel nothing for everything and almost everybody. mr.rutschman called me bitter today and it's true. i am.