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[gastin]

I feel like a comedian. Not in the sense the Im funny, because most the shit I try to relay is rediculously lame, but more as in as Im going on with my act Im kept down by the constant scrutiny and malicious howls from the ever growing population of hecklers in my life. And what really eats away at me is how I have nothing to say back to them. After they rip apart and tear down my joke, I should, as a comedian, be able to say something that makes their attempts to destroy me on stage fail. And who is it hurting? Not me, the only thing affecting me are the bright fucking lights showing all my faults that further fuel the the hecklers. But it does hurt my fan, because lets face it by this point I only have one left in this audience, and this fan is way to fucking stubborn to not have a good time after paying the ten dollar cover. But the fan's the one hurt because it's my secondary duty as a comedian to shoot down the hecklers crys and when I crummble who else is there for the fan to listen to?

Now I like this girl alot..look at me, Im talking to the hecklers..
I like you alot. I just wish I knew what to say.
Maybe Im just a horrible comedian.