Do you have the life that you wanted?
I always wondered why you chose to study English. You never seemed to have a passion for the subject. I remember encouraging you to write for the love of writing, or read for the love of reading, but all you wanted to do was to go to school. You jumped from subject to subject and finally landed on English. I was always excited for you, and despite what you claim, I always knew you would do well.
So are the people better? Are all your friends grad students and PhD holders? Do you go to parties and only date men who are published? Yoga class, analysis, conferences, repeat. Forever tethered to the warm safety of academia