Alone

[gaspains]

Bright starry night
Constellations and shooting stars
Fill me with hope and inspiration
Close my eyes
To capture it all in my mind
Open my eyes
Realize that it was only a dream
For now I am awake
Awakened to my daily nightmare
My reality
I’m lost in the open ocean
Waters created from my tears
Tears of my own self-pity
Forever alone
I am always grieving
Lost and not living
Forever alone
I scream and I shout
But no one comes
Forever alone
Replaying all of the “what ifs and whys?”
Wondering what I should have done different
Forever alone
Wish I could let the water just take me
End all of my self-inflicted suffering
Forever alone
Can’t share the burden
With friends and family
They only come at night
When it’s cool and comfortable
They’re the stars in my dream
They give me false hopes
Because I’ll always wake up
Treading water for another day
Forever alone