bullshit lies, drama, & no hope left
life is a shitty thing! just when i get happy and start to belive that i can have a good life everything goes wrong! i always find myself asking why do i even try! im sick of all the pain the games the lies, im sick of crying alone at night. why does everyone disapear just when i believe they care. im sick of falling for the wrong guy. im sick of hiding how i feel inside. its gotten to the point where people have started to notice theres something wrong but the sad thing is they dont care enough to help me. im sick of being blown off by the person i thought cared the person who said he loved me. things are not going so well with me and david right now for the past month almost that we have been going out alls hes does is tell me hes coming over and then never call or come over ive seen him once this week and we were supposed to hang out tonight but now hes not coming over hes going to bills house. yea right! i cant help but think that hes cheating on me. what else am i supposed to think when almost every guy i've gone out with pulled the same shit and i later find out they cheated on me. i cant help but think that way im so fucked in the head right now. last night i found out someone really important to me is leaving monday and not coming back and i was talking to david about it and he promised hed never leave me. but everyday it seems like we drift father apart. i have no hope left i cant even hope that things between us will get better because ive lost all hope of that. now im left here not knowing what to do should i stay with him and wait for things to get better(if they ever will) or to get out now before i get so hurt it kills me. i love him alot and dont really want it to end im just sick of getting hurt. well im going to go now and sleep because i dont want to deal with this shit right now the only peace i get is when im asleep. well bye everyone. if anyone wants to talk to me you have my number.