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Once upon a time I wrote something that many felt like I shouldn’t have. Several questioned how “necessary” it was for me to not only write what I did, but to feel what I felt and react based on those emotions. Needless to say, I didn’t give a shit. I get my emotions out by writing what I know, what I feel, and what I want. In the end, I took it down realizing that for me to be the bigger person, I’d have to step it up and become the mature adult that others failed to become.
A few other things I stated, those of which did not point fingers towards any certain individuals, hopefully put things into a broader perspective for those who would cross my path. I still stand by those certain words I wrote because they are things that I will always feel and believe in, and are not based on rash decisions that came out of me feeling angry, upset, or revengeful.
The world is not perfect, but there is no harm in wishing it was, therefore I do not feel bad saying life would be so much easier without the existence of certain people.
Is this not the truth? If you can honestly tell me that you do not believe this than I challenge you to go above and beyond and tell me how I am so wrong in believing this and explain to me what makes you so right.
Most of you know I am dating a wonderful guy named Dave Tart. He's the first on my top 8, so if you feel such a strong urge to check him out, please feel free to do so. Realize this... he is mine, and if you, male or female, try to get in the way of our relationship or jeopardize what we have, I will make you hate life to the fullest extent. If you want him, he's taken. If you've had him, good for you. If you want him back, well that's too damn bad.
Blah blah blah, yada yada yada. I’ve only said things about million times and like I said before, I meant what I wrote and I’m not afraid to put it out there again. But it seems like problem children keep popping up everywhere and although I don’t let them get the best of me they still make me laugh and I can only help but wonder why they would make such spectacles of themselves. I realize that while I can be immature and have my moments that I’m not so proud of, they are immature most of the time and make others want to scream and pull their hair out.
Rachel Winograd.
Part of me wanted to believe that she wasn’t as annoying as she first came off to be. But now, I’m pretty much certain she’s one of the most annoying people I’ve ever encountered. She kinda sorta shows up unannounced and stays longer than she should. When she walks in to a room an awkward silence follows. While I’ve only met her once (and people always tell you it’s not right to judge people - though first impressions always count) my boyfriend has had the privilege of being best friends with someone who lives son her floor. Because of this connection and me only meeting her once, she feels as if she knows me through Dave. The first time they actually spoke, Dave told her he had this thing called a girlfriend and from what I was told she was bummed about it. Who wouldn’t be, I guess? If you have a little crush on someone before you even have the chance to talk to them and have some sort of hope for you two, it would be okay for you to become bummed because said cute boy has a girlfriend. It’s natural. But what’s not okay, is then telling people that his girlfriend took him away from you and that she’s preventing you two from spending time together because she comes down to see him every weekend. Uhm , hello! I’m pretty sure that 6 months ago you were still at a high school somewhere in New Jersey and you didn’t know this kid even existed and he wasn’t even a blip on your radar. 6 months ago before we started dating, we both made a conscious decision that meant we would be together and commit ourselves to only one another. Sorry, but you kind of never fit into the equation and to try to shove yourself in to the picture is pretty ridiculous. But maybe that’s just me.
Kristen Lapi.
I really enjoyed hanging out with this girl. In the beginning of this semester she was one of the only girls that Dave and Matt hung around besides Jen and Amy, and I loved all three of them. They were easy to get along with and didn’t seem too dramatic. But Jen had a boyfriend and Matt liked her. We thought she had a thing for Matt, but after whispering sweet nothings into both his and someone else’s ear at a party, Dave had to break it to him that Jen probably wasn’t a good choice and he needed to finally get over her, and fast. Meanwhile, Lapi and Connor have had a thing for one another since the beginning of last year. But Connor remained faithful to his girlfriend at the time and Lapi made her rounds with everyone else. Do not think that I am calling her a whore, so before you think that let me explain. Dave was the first person she met and he introduced her to Matt, Connor and Phil. She had feelings for Dave that he could not return, she had feelings for Connor and he had a girlfriend, and Phil began to like her but nothing happened there. This semester her and matt “fooled around” but it was to my understanding that they both had agreed it was better to remain close friends because of Matt’s attraction to Jen and Lapi’s infatuation with Connor. That brings up several other fallacies. Connor and Kelly broke up after 3 years and after he found out she cheated on him. During that time they never had sex, however once they broke up, they pretty much covered all the bases and he made a few home runs. There you go, Connor is no longer a virgin. However what would become of him and Lapi? Nothing. If anything, Connor treats her like shit and is rather condescending. I feel bad to a certain extent and then I remembered something Dave once said while describing the situation: “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.” Therefore my pity stops there. Someone else said, “Lapi could have Connor running in circles if she wanted to.” Then why doesn’t she? All of this relationship mumbo-jumbo isn’t where it ends with her. If someone introduced you to people in a new place that you weren’t familiar with and took you under their wing like a little sister, is it so ludicrous to expect that you’d remain grateful to them, that is unless, of course, they did something so bad to you that ruined your friendship? While Dave tried to stand up for Lapi to Connor and calls him out on the fact he treats her like shit, she continues to treat Dave like shit. For some reason she has been living to just prove him wrong on things that are so far fetched and ridiculous. It has gotten to the point that when he replied to a joke and said “Yup, Dave, that’s me” she (just in passing, not in the original conversation) said, “No your not.” One more issue I have with Lapi is the fact that she, like Rachel, tried to tell our friends that someone took Matt away from her. Matt finally found someone he likes being with, finally found someone who likes him back, finally found a girl who will treat him like he wanted to be treated and give him the attention he deserves. Now that Matt has a new girlfriend, Lapi is trying to claim that she took him away from her and that she feels like Matt and her are no longer friends just because he has this new girlfriend. Please, if any of us really wanted to deal with that drama and “he said, she said, they did” bullshit, we would still be in high school.
Connor Beck.
I first met Connor last year, pretty much in passing. His roommate Billy was downtown one night, and while there was never any attraction, my friends and I thought he’d be a decent kid to hang out with. We were wrong, Billy is actually one of the biggest tools I have ever met in my life, and if you ever meet him, I am really truly sorry. One of the times I met Connor he was on his way to hang out with Lapi, the first time I met her as well, although that too, was only in passing. Billy had told me Connor had a girlfriend back home when I asked about Lapi and if they were dating. I then officially met Connor at the end of last semester after Dave and I started dating. They graduated from the same high school and were best friends and at first I thought Connor was a genuinely nice guy. During senior week we hung out with Kelly, his now ex-girlfriend, and although I sensed some trouble, I didn’t think about it until later. After they broke up something in Connor changed. While I know that a longer-term relationship break-up can haunt you and bring you down, you have got to get over it at some point. Connor can talk so much shit about how he’s over Kelly, but deep down he’s really not. That’s not the problem though, the problem is what he’s changed in to. He tried to be manipulative in regards to his own best friends. He lies to them to the point that Dave, Matt, and Phil no longer know what to believe. Phil liked a girl named Rebecca, who one night ended up in Connor and Matt’s room until at least 5:30 in the morning, talking to Connor in his bed about this, that and the other thing. Connor then tried to tell Matt and Dave that he “really has feelings towards Rebecca” when they both know that in the end she wouldn’t be around for long because he’s still so hung up on Kelly. Rebecca’s feelings aside (whether or not she does or does not like Phil or Connor) it was a pretty low thing to do when you hang out with a girl one of your best friends likes, and then one night decide, hey, screw my friend, I have feelings for this girl. I guess already had a fucked up mentality even before Kelly was torn from the picture. He tried telling Dave and their friend Craig that he could probably get a kiss from me if he played the sympathy card and had me alone. This they both laughed at and at first when Dave told me, I did too chalking it up to “that’s just guy talk,” although it kind of made me uneasy. As if this wasn’t enough for someone to question or even be worried about, he then made his rounds on Matt’s girlfriend, basically telling Amanda to her face that he likes me better because I’m cool. Then tells Rebecca that he thinks Amanda is a bitch. Let me clear things up. Amanda just met everyone and was just added to I guess what we could call a group. She’s a newbie. For someone to call her, of all people, a bitch, is pretty much insane. Calling her a bitch is like trying to convince someone that Helen Keller could both see and speak. Even if Amanda was a raging bitch that wanted to conquer the world starting with Matt, I’m her true colors wouldn’t show until a long time down the road. A big part of me wants to tell Connor what everyone thinks about him, that he’s being immature and that he’s changed in to someone that no one knows, likes, or trusts. I also want to tell him that if he thinks anyone to be a bitch, it should be himself.