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i think it clearly describes how i feel towards amanda, who is daves ex.
to be truthful i thought she would have read it sooner and maybe i gave her the benefit of the doubt and thought she was being the bigger and better person by not saying anything in return.
however it is now to my knowledge, that her friend jayne was the first to stumble upon my profile and god forbid anyone just ignore anything.... jayne asks my boyfriend "is it really necessary?" "how can she meet someone she's never 'met'?"
yes. it was necessary. and it will be necessary until these issues are dealt with. get over it.
WHAT I WROTE ON MYSPACE. . . .
Normally, I am a very non-aggressive and passive individual. While I easily get annoyed with the common sense certain people seem to lack, I tend to bit my tongue. However when my buttons get pushed and issues that I thought were resolved seem to resurface, "the gloves come off.”
Most of you know I am dating a wonderful guy named Dave Tart. He's the first on my top 8, so if you feel such a strong urge to check him out, please feel free to do so. Realize this... he is mine, and if you, male or female, try to get in the way of our relationship or jeopardize what we have, I will make you hate life to the fullest extent. If you want him, he's taken. If you've had him, good for you. If you want him back, well that's too damn bad. While I feel just a little bit sorry (to a certain extent) that you lost the best thing that could ever happen to your life, I do not pity you one bit because he deserved a hell of a lot better. I am beginning to realize I’m not a bitch, but you are.
You walk around like your shits don’t stink. You think you can keep everyone wrapped around your little finger. You use alcohol as a scapegoat and as excuse to act belligerent. Your head is shoved so far up your own ass that Id be surprised if you at one point in time had the ability to feel anything but pride and personal satisfaction in your own petty actions towards others. Have you forgotten that you’re the one who cheated? You’re the one who lied. You’re the one who fucked things up and its time for you to deal with the consequences of your actions. Isn’t it about damn time you got over it and moved on? Shouldn’t you learn how to grow up and start acting like a big girl? Oh I forgot, that requires just a little bit of tact, self-respect and control, none of which you seem to have.
I could care less what your intentions are at this point. Truth remains that I sleep soundly and have the ability to live my life without a care of what you try to do to us, our family, and our friends. In the end you still don’t mean a damn thing to me. You’re still not worthy of my time or energy. I still look down on you and you’re still a piece of shit in my eyes.
The world is not perfect, but there is no harm in wishing it was, therefore I do not feel bad saying life would be so much easier without the existence of certain people.
WHAT I WROTE TO JAYNE . . .
it takes a lot of nerve to talk about someone you never really "met" and i guess thats where you and i are similar. what does it matter that you talked to dave about me? then again, what does it matter that i wrote something that i really honestly feel about amanda and people like her? yes a lot of what i wrote was directed towards amanda, cause come on sweetie, your one of her best friends so im sure you know how she really is. i dont know what amandas motives are and frankly i dont care because no matter what her intentions are i want her out of our lives. its a pretty simple concept. she doesnt have to text him to ask if he wants to grab food or hang out... doesnt have to ask matt, george, connor or lapi where he is or to wake him up.
i wrote most of what i did because i saw how she treated dave and what kind of person she was. shes not the kind of person id want to be friends with but the one night i met her i still was nice to her. amanda was piss ass drunk passed out under a tree and for some reason, me being the person i am, still looked for her although i owed her nothing. i could have left her there all night but i didnt... so i woke her up and let dave deal with her because i didnt think shed want me to be there. what does she do? tells him she hates him and wants her out of his life. tells him to get her hands off of her cause he is really honestly trying to help her.
you could tell amanda what i wrote, you could ignore it and let her read it herself, or someone else could tell her what i said... hell, if she was ever standing in front of me i would tell her myself.
amanda has to grow up at some point or another whether its today or 5 years from now. and for the record, i dont hate her. if anything, i feel bad for her
i think it clearly describes how i feel towards amanda, who is daves ex.
to be truthful i thought she would have read it sooner and maybe i gave her the benefit of the doubt and thought she was being the bigger and better person by not saying anything in return.
however it is now to my knowledge, that her friend jayne was the first to stumble upon my profile and god forbid anyone just ignore anything.... jayne asks my boyfriend "is it really necessary?" "how can she meet someone she's never 'met'?"
yes. it was necessary. and it will be necessary until these issues are dealt with. get over it.
WHAT I WROTE ON MYSPACE. . . .
Normally, I am a very non-aggressive and passive individual. While I easily get annoyed with the common sense certain people seem to lack, I tend to bit my tongue. However when my buttons get pushed and issues that I thought were resolved seem to resurface, "the gloves come off.”
Most of you know I am dating a wonderful guy named Dave Tart. He's the first on my top 8, so if you feel such a strong urge to check him out, please feel free to do so. Realize this... he is mine, and if you, male or female, try to get in the way of our relationship or jeopardize what we have, I will make you hate life to the fullest extent. If you want him, he's taken. If you've had him, good for you. If you want him back, well that's too damn bad. While I feel just a little bit sorry (to a certain extent) that you lost the best thing that could ever happen to your life, I do not pity you one bit because he deserved a hell of a lot better. I am beginning to realize I’m not a bitch, but you are.
You walk around like your shits don’t stink. You think you can keep everyone wrapped around your little finger. You use alcohol as a scapegoat and as excuse to act belligerent. Your head is shoved so far up your own ass that Id be surprised if you at one point in time had the ability to feel anything but pride and personal satisfaction in your own petty actions towards others. Have you forgotten that you’re the one who cheated? You’re the one who lied. You’re the one who fucked things up and its time for you to deal with the consequences of your actions. Isn’t it about damn time you got over it and moved on? Shouldn’t you learn how to grow up and start acting like a big girl? Oh I forgot, that requires just a little bit of tact, self-respect and control, none of which you seem to have.
I could care less what your intentions are at this point. Truth remains that I sleep soundly and have the ability to live my life without a care of what you try to do to us, our family, and our friends. In the end you still don’t mean a damn thing to me. You’re still not worthy of my time or energy. I still look down on you and you’re still a piece of shit in my eyes.
The world is not perfect, but there is no harm in wishing it was, therefore I do not feel bad saying life would be so much easier without the existence of certain people.
WHAT I WROTE TO JAYNE . . .
it takes a lot of nerve to talk about someone you never really "met" and i guess thats where you and i are similar. what does it matter that you talked to dave about me? then again, what does it matter that i wrote something that i really honestly feel about amanda and people like her? yes a lot of what i wrote was directed towards amanda, cause come on sweetie, your one of her best friends so im sure you know how she really is. i dont know what amandas motives are and frankly i dont care because no matter what her intentions are i want her out of our lives. its a pretty simple concept. she doesnt have to text him to ask if he wants to grab food or hang out... doesnt have to ask matt, george, connor or lapi where he is or to wake him up.
i wrote most of what i did because i saw how she treated dave and what kind of person she was. shes not the kind of person id want to be friends with but the one night i met her i still was nice to her. amanda was piss ass drunk passed out under a tree and for some reason, me being the person i am, still looked for her although i owed her nothing. i could have left her there all night but i didnt... so i woke her up and let dave deal with her because i didnt think shed want me to be there. what does she do? tells him she hates him and wants her out of his life. tells him to get her hands off of her cause he is really honestly trying to help her.
you could tell amanda what i wrote, you could ignore it and let her read it herself, or someone else could tell her what i said... hell, if she was ever standing in front of me i would tell her myself.
amanda has to grow up at some point or another whether its today or 5 years from now. and for the record, i dont hate her. if anything, i feel bad for her