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fuck people of all kinds...fuck friends, theyre not real. i argued wit 1 of my best friends for u kayleigh. i dont even kno how its gonna end. fuck it right, werent u sayin "fuck him" neways..i knew it was comin, jus like u did. like u said .."Kales11987 (11:10:21 PM): because he refuses to talk to me and wont give me a fucking reason... i fucking hate him... why the hell i ever gave him anyting or did shit for him i dont fucking know! im so fucking stupid! and blind! how could i not see this coming!" ..exactly!
i asked my self why i was doin it for you b4 i did it. i know justin, i knew he was gonna blo up on me, evidently no1 cared or they wouldnt have asked me 2 do the things i do. this isnt just today..ppl ask me 2 do all kinds of shit, stupid shit, every1!..but im the dumb one..im the 1 doin it.
ne other night, id get a fone call from my baby..ashley..tellin me dat she loves me, how much she cares for me, but she only calls 2 tell me dat. nothin else. right b4 i go 2 bed, thats da best kind of fone call 2 get...but 2nite, after a bad day, when i need sum inspiration 2 stay..when i wait all day for that *special*fone call..i dont get it..
u really dont understand my life. i make it seem as easy as possible. hell, my life mite as well b easy! sike...since dec 16th, my ma is barely home ne more..my sister is always gone. when they are here they argue with my stepdad..i mean, the shit pisses me off..my home life is shitty but i make it seem like i have no complications..bc i dont. its all in my head, like nelly...fuck that shit! outside of the crib its a different story. i do things 2 make ppl believe that i have it good. fuck, i dont have it newhere close 2 go. i have it better then alotta ppl in other places, but its not all that great! i put on all kinds of fake shit: smiles, looks, attitudes..hell even clothes. i have little clothes. doesnt matter, i dont give a fuck..cuz i always look good in what eva i have on. *cocky*
hell, my cockyness is even fake(sorry amanda)! :) aint that a bitch
the people love me for the things that i do...i mean i do great things to you all..but they're really not all that great. trust me, if u really knew me, ud understand. i think shane mite b the only 1 that is even close 2 understandin, my mom dont, pops, family..friends(fuck em! i have none)..nobody knows but me. that up there is nothin compared to what u should really know b4 u judge me, after readin this. i get judged so much better and worse then i should b. ppl think im better then i really am, truth is im not. ppl think they kno wats goin on inside me, they dont. ppl think i have no plan for myself, I DO! bitch!
fuck im done for now..fuck tellin u shit, there is nothin u can do..yes kayleigh, now im done
i asked my self why i was doin it for you b4 i did it. i know justin, i knew he was gonna blo up on me, evidently no1 cared or they wouldnt have asked me 2 do the things i do. this isnt just today..ppl ask me 2 do all kinds of shit, stupid shit, every1!..but im the dumb one..im the 1 doin it.
ne other night, id get a fone call from my baby..ashley..tellin me dat she loves me, how much she cares for me, but she only calls 2 tell me dat. nothin else. right b4 i go 2 bed, thats da best kind of fone call 2 get...but 2nite, after a bad day, when i need sum inspiration 2 stay..when i wait all day for that *special*fone call..i dont get it..
u really dont understand my life. i make it seem as easy as possible. hell, my life mite as well b easy! sike...since dec 16th, my ma is barely home ne more..my sister is always gone. when they are here they argue with my stepdad..i mean, the shit pisses me off..my home life is shitty but i make it seem like i have no complications..bc i dont. its all in my head, like nelly...fuck that shit! outside of the crib its a different story. i do things 2 make ppl believe that i have it good. fuck, i dont have it newhere close 2 go. i have it better then alotta ppl in other places, but its not all that great! i put on all kinds of fake shit: smiles, looks, attitudes..hell even clothes. i have little clothes. doesnt matter, i dont give a fuck..cuz i always look good in what eva i have on. *cocky*
hell, my cockyness is even fake(sorry amanda)! :) aint that a bitch
the people love me for the things that i do...i mean i do great things to you all..but they're really not all that great. trust me, if u really knew me, ud understand. i think shane mite b the only 1 that is even close 2 understandin, my mom dont, pops, family..friends(fuck em! i have none)..nobody knows but me. that up there is nothin compared to what u should really know b4 u judge me, after readin this. i get judged so much better and worse then i should b. ppl think im better then i really am, truth is im not. ppl think they kno wats goin on inside me, they dont. ppl think i have no plan for myself, I DO! bitch!
fuck im done for now..fuck tellin u shit, there is nothin u can do..yes kayleigh, now im done