Today
Today I slept in later than I wanted to, then went to do some shopping. Got some stuff in fivepoints, then realized it was too late to send a letter to Matt. I've had it written, in the envelope, addressed and stamped for several days, but I never get it out. In frustration I called him. I was feeling a bit goofy, though, had been drinking hot apple juice and at four thirty in the evening had had nothing but apple juice and cigarrettes to sustain me.
Broke down and went to the mall. Too much shopping in to little time not to. I hate malls. I tried to go into Spencer and then Hot Topic to find something for my sister, but I just couldn't do it. Pretty successful shopping, and I made it most of the way before started to feel nauseated.
Came home but no one was there so I went to Fuel, where I got pissed off at Spikes, and was about to leave when I decided to hang out with Jim and Robert for a while. Started to feel better, then a group from Jasmyn came in.
Okay, so, Jasmyn is the "Jacksonville Area Sexual Minority Youth Network" and the Jasmyn kids that all hang out are the really weird, not-often-attractive gay guys. But, I was feeling fairly wierd myself so I hung out with them for the rest of the night. It's not that I'm making fun of them; I enjoy the times that I spend with them, it's just that it reminds me of why I don't go to Jasmyn. It's just not my thing. Nevertheless, being around gay people reminded me of how I'd like to get into the gay community a little bit. Everyone I hang out with that's under 30 is straight, and as a result I often forget that, no, I'm not the only gay guy in Jacksonville. I can't see myself in a serious relationship, nor in a purely sexual one, but I'd like a boyfriend. More than that, though, I'd just like some gay friends. The problem is that gay guys my age are rarely the kind of people I'd like to spend time with. Go figure. But then again, that's just the gay guys I've met, and I don't put myself out there.
Tomorrow I finish my Christmas shopping and wrap the gifts. Joe's supposed to call me too, some of the guys may get together, and if not tomorrow, then I know I'll be seeing everyone next week sometime.
Our first planning for Spring Rally, "Laugh Like Jesus" is coming up, so it'll be interesting to see how that goes. I'd like to make a documentary about rally, so if any of you active Y.O.U.ers reading this would be interested in helping me, let me know.
That's all for today. I pray I will be responsible and go to bed before 4AM, but we'll see.
Broke down and went to the mall. Too much shopping in to little time not to. I hate malls. I tried to go into Spencer and then Hot Topic to find something for my sister, but I just couldn't do it. Pretty successful shopping, and I made it most of the way before started to feel nauseated.
Came home but no one was there so I went to Fuel, where I got pissed off at Spikes, and was about to leave when I decided to hang out with Jim and Robert for a while. Started to feel better, then a group from Jasmyn came in.
Okay, so, Jasmyn is the "Jacksonville Area Sexual Minority Youth Network" and the Jasmyn kids that all hang out are the really weird, not-often-attractive gay guys. But, I was feeling fairly wierd myself so I hung out with them for the rest of the night. It's not that I'm making fun of them; I enjoy the times that I spend with them, it's just that it reminds me of why I don't go to Jasmyn. It's just not my thing. Nevertheless, being around gay people reminded me of how I'd like to get into the gay community a little bit. Everyone I hang out with that's under 30 is straight, and as a result I often forget that, no, I'm not the only gay guy in Jacksonville. I can't see myself in a serious relationship, nor in a purely sexual one, but I'd like a boyfriend. More than that, though, I'd just like some gay friends. The problem is that gay guys my age are rarely the kind of people I'd like to spend time with. Go figure. But then again, that's just the gay guys I've met, and I don't put myself out there.
Tomorrow I finish my Christmas shopping and wrap the gifts. Joe's supposed to call me too, some of the guys may get together, and if not tomorrow, then I know I'll be seeing everyone next week sometime.
Our first planning for Spring Rally, "Laugh Like Jesus" is coming up, so it'll be interesting to see how that goes. I'd like to make a documentary about rally, so if any of you active Y.O.U.ers reading this would be interested in helping me, let me know.
That's all for today. I pray I will be responsible and go to bed before 4AM, but we'll see.