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Something is happening...
Something really good...
But horrible at the same time...
I have loved the same person for nearly a year now. It has been a forbidden love. An unrequited love. A painful love. Now, it looks like things may be changing...a deeper connection may be made, a more intimate relationship may begin. I have tried to get over him, but I haven't been able to. A year has gone by since I fell for him, a year in which I delt with a lot and struggled to get over him. When the pressure was on to do so, and I just couldn't, so I simply claimed that I had.
Smile and the feeling will follow. Bullshit.
Now, after I had given up all hope, and still couldn't get him out of my heart; now, after he's moved six hours away without hardly a goodbye; now, when my lonliness is at a max, he's coming back.
And he's gayer than ever. And he's calling me, frequently.
And I love him.
And it hurts.
Damnit.
Something really good...
But horrible at the same time...
I have loved the same person for nearly a year now. It has been a forbidden love. An unrequited love. A painful love. Now, it looks like things may be changing...a deeper connection may be made, a more intimate relationship may begin. I have tried to get over him, but I haven't been able to. A year has gone by since I fell for him, a year in which I delt with a lot and struggled to get over him. When the pressure was on to do so, and I just couldn't, so I simply claimed that I had.
Smile and the feeling will follow. Bullshit.
Now, after I had given up all hope, and still couldn't get him out of my heart; now, after he's moved six hours away without hardly a goodbye; now, when my lonliness is at a max, he's coming back.
And he's gayer than ever. And he's calling me, frequently.
And I love him.
And it hurts.
Damnit.