Real life
Last night, party at AT's in New Brunswick. Went with Bender and hung out with all the cool SO/M kids who showed up. Today, went for a long ass bike ride, played outside with Dylan and Justin, and talked to Dad.
That talk was...big, I think. The past couple of months I've really thought that I've matured because I've come to terms with a lot of things about the way the world is and the way that I should be. It kinda sucks because I know that I'm naive, trusting, and sorta innocent but God damn it I like that about me. But its really not enough. I can't just be aware of shit and not do anything about it. I can't stay sitting back and taking whatever I'm givin and just accepting whatever I get. I really need to go out and work hard make it happen. I don't know if I can actually do this. Because in addition to the above, I'm also lazy, passive, and unmotivated. I don't know if going against my nature like that is even possible. But I do know its going to be hard and I don't like hard either. But I do know if want to make any kind of respectable life for myself, I have to try.
That talk was...big, I think. The past couple of months I've really thought that I've matured because I've come to terms with a lot of things about the way the world is and the way that I should be. It kinda sucks because I know that I'm naive, trusting, and sorta innocent but God damn it I like that about me. But its really not enough. I can't just be aware of shit and not do anything about it. I can't stay sitting back and taking whatever I'm givin and just accepting whatever I get. I really need to go out and work hard make it happen. I don't know if I can actually do this. Because in addition to the above, I'm also lazy, passive, and unmotivated. I don't know if going against my nature like that is even possible. But I do know its going to be hard and I don't like hard either. But I do know if want to make any kind of respectable life for myself, I have to try.