my love is my whole being and I've shared what I could
I am restless.
I want to go home. Home-home, in California, sometimes, or back to Commonwealth Avenue in Boston or Stony Brook campus where all my friends are or Jayanagar in Bangalore. Sometimes I even want to go up the coast to Sandy Hook, where I went to high school. All these places that are and aren’t home. Anywhere that isn’t here. Mostly I'm just bored. I'm sick of the internet and reading and tv and blaaaaah. BORED.
Unrelated to my boredom: I want more James/Kendall multi-chapter fic. This is what I’ve decided. shut up I mean to read. I'm writing, I'm writing writing ridiculously depressing oneshots and weird stories where they are little boys in the woods of Minneosta idek what's going on anymore, I'm in a state of perpetual dismay about everything I write. VAMPIRES AND ALTERNATE UNIVERSES AND SERIAL KILLERS OH MY.
I’m possibly in a mood because there is no Lip/Ian Shameless fic anywhere. I don’t know why I keep choosing ships that are completely unrepresented in fandom. You know it just means I’ll just have to write my own.
Ugh, but I am sick of fandom too. I’ve been done with South Park fic for over a year and a half now, and I feel like I’ll make myself nauseous if I try to read anymore Merlin fic lies I totally was reading this today at work, and I love me some Social Network fic but so much of it ends miserably. Which is kind of the appeal, but I can only take so much. I read some of the Jesse/Andrew stuff out there, but rpf just makes me uncomfortable, no matter how good it is.
The problem here is that the stories I love most are always somehow canon. And most people don’t try to write canon because it is somewhat limiting. I don’t think it’s limiting, I think people just lack creativity, but I am a sour puss. While AUs are good fun, they get kind of obnoxious when that’s all that gets written. EVER.
Back to James/Kendall, I swear, all we have is a handful of AUs and porn. Which is nice, honestly, I am not hating on any of the fic we do have especially not the porn, because it’s amazing (although why the fuck does everyone want to beat the shit out of James? Everywhere I turn he’s being abused or dying of cancer or addicted to smack or idek. Sadists, the lot of us you) but I’d like a little diversity. I miss South Park, because there were so many long stories that were just about boys having fun and falling in love. We need some of that.
I bet there’s tons of multi-chaptered boys falling in love kogan fic, isn’t there? I should jump ship.
...NAH.
Also, dude, stop hating on Kesha being on Victorious. Kesha is my role model.
...
Okay, not really, but as someone who quite possibly legitimately owns more glitter eyeshadow than she does and frequently enjoys binge drinking and hooking up with questionable boys when I’m single when I’m single when I’m single I’m a good girl now, I find some of the insults being thrown her way personally offensive. Whether you like her or not, the girl’s a fucking genius. She’s made a mint of acting like trailer trash, and no matter what you feel about her singing, her songs are catchy. I say that as someone who largely enjoys fucking obscure indie rock and folk bands, SO. Haters need to hate elsewhere.
We all know you’re just jealous you don’t have as much glitter as I do she does. We can fix that. Try this or this or this or I could really go on forever. You don't want to see my makeup collection. It's MASSIVE.
...I'm going to go drink my tea out of Queen Elizabeth I now. I miss my disappearing wives mug. My mom hid it somewhere. :( Um, yes, I have a collection of Tudor era mugs. It's not weird. IT'S NOT.
Okay, maybe it is, but if anyone sees King Henry VIII or his wives or really any kind of old timey royal mug around where they live, think of me. Better yet, buy it for me, and I'll fucking reimburse you for it. And shipping.
IT'S NOT WEIRD.
I want to go home. Home-home, in California, sometimes, or back to Commonwealth Avenue in Boston or Stony Brook campus where all my friends are or Jayanagar in Bangalore. Sometimes I even want to go up the coast to Sandy Hook, where I went to high school. All these places that are and aren’t home. Anywhere that isn’t here. Mostly I'm just bored. I'm sick of the internet and reading and tv and blaaaaah. BORED.
Unrelated to my boredom: I want more James/Kendall multi-chapter fic. This is what I’ve decided. shut up I mean to read. I'm writing, I'm writing writing ridiculously depressing oneshots and weird stories where they are little boys in the woods of Minneosta idek what's going on anymore, I'm in a state of perpetual dismay about everything I write. VAMPIRES AND ALTERNATE UNIVERSES AND SERIAL KILLERS OH MY.
I’m possibly in a mood because there is no Lip/Ian Shameless fic anywhere. I don’t know why I keep choosing ships that are completely unrepresented in fandom. You know it just means I’ll just have to write my own.
Ugh, but I am sick of fandom too. I’ve been done with South Park fic for over a year and a half now, and I feel like I’ll make myself nauseous if I try to read anymore Merlin fic lies I totally was reading this today at work, and I love me some Social Network fic but so much of it ends miserably. Which is kind of the appeal, but I can only take so much. I read some of the Jesse/Andrew stuff out there, but rpf just makes me uncomfortable, no matter how good it is.
The problem here is that the stories I love most are always somehow canon. And most people don’t try to write canon because it is somewhat limiting. I don’t think it’s limiting, I think people just lack creativity, but I am a sour puss. While AUs are good fun, they get kind of obnoxious when that’s all that gets written. EVER.
Back to James/Kendall, I swear, all we have is a handful of AUs and porn. Which is nice, honestly, I am not hating on any of the fic we do have especially not the porn, because it’s amazing (although why the fuck does everyone want to beat the shit out of James? Everywhere I turn he’s being abused or dying of cancer or addicted to smack or idek. Sadists, the lot of us you) but I’d like a little diversity. I miss South Park, because there were so many long stories that were just about boys having fun and falling in love. We need some of that.
I bet there’s tons of multi-chaptered boys falling in love kogan fic, isn’t there? I should jump ship.
...NAH.
Also, dude, stop hating on Kesha being on Victorious. Kesha is my role model.
...
Okay, not really, but as someone who quite possibly legitimately owns more glitter eyeshadow than she does and frequently enjoys binge drinking and hooking up with questionable boys when I’m single when I’m single when I’m single I’m a good girl now, I find some of the insults being thrown her way personally offensive. Whether you like her or not, the girl’s a fucking genius. She’s made a mint of acting like trailer trash, and no matter what you feel about her singing, her songs are catchy. I say that as someone who largely enjoys fucking obscure indie rock and folk bands, SO. Haters need to hate elsewhere.
We all know you’re just jealous you don’t have as much glitter as I do she does. We can fix that. Try this or this or this or I could really go on forever. You don't want to see my makeup collection. It's MASSIVE.
...I'm going to go drink my tea out of Queen Elizabeth I now. I miss my disappearing wives mug. My mom hid it somewhere. :( Um, yes, I have a collection of Tudor era mugs. It's not weird. IT'S NOT.
Okay, maybe it is, but if anyone sees King Henry VIII or his wives or really any kind of old timey royal mug around where they live, think of me. Better yet, buy it for me, and I'll fucking reimburse you for it. And shipping.
IT'S NOT WEIRD.