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[gargoylangel]

I tried to do this the other day but it didnt work. Me and ryan broke up. but what ever. I didnt really realize this but there are alot of poeple that seem to like me. Im kinda happy that I'm losing weight. since the begining of september when i got really really sick, i've lost 20 pounds. my dad said that the doctor called him yesterday and he said that the tests have come back for like 2 weeks ago nad that i have a bacterial infection in my stomach. before he was telling me that i had an ulser. but what ever. i dont like that part where im always sick, but i like that part that im losing weight!!!! things are going pretty good other then that. I wish that me and ryan would be able to talk though. there is soo much that i want him to know. but one day soon i will get together with him and talk. I heard from josh holmes the other day. he's not in IRAQ!!! hes in Georgia. that makes me so happy!! I wrote him a letter. i hop e that he replys soon. this might sound weird, but I know that me and him had a rough time but I think that im still in love with him!!! I think that if i hear good news back from him, that i might stay single or casually date until he gets out of the army, or until i can be with him on a base. I dont know if i can or not. i need a pic of you for my brochue EMO!

If you are reading this, i want you to leave a message about a memory you have between us. even if we dont talk very much.