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I'm kinda having a hard time right now. I cant get over jeff and thats really getting to me. the part that pisses me off the most is that when we were going out he said that last year he went to a dance with this girl and that he asked her out but she siad that she didnt want a relaltionship and then a week later he found out that she had a boy friend and he got all pissed off at her, well he pretty much did the same god damn thing to me! he dumped me and said he didnt want a relationship then exactly a week later he goes out with some chic! i would say that is a kick in the balls, but i dont have ne so that phrase doesnt work so great with me. but yea im so pisses off cause of him. and the other lovely part is that he broke up with me in the middle os all of this shit that was going on.my mom pretty much disowned me, my dad ditched me for his new house/ girlfriend, i was really sick, and school just started and my sister has been getting on my nerves, then to top it off he broke up with me. and people wonder why im so depressed and like every day i come to school all fucked up. thats what made me go back to my fuckin drugs. it may only get me away for a little while but it atleast gets me away. and to top i6t off ive been kinda being good! i havent cut myself just yet. ive thought about it and wanted to do it many times, but i have help back the erge! and i have come to the conclusion that i am going to be single for the rest of my fucking life. cause people suck ass! and if ne one that reads this knows who jeff is then u have my permission to beat the shit outa him with out ne reason other then he is a fucking jerk! so if u see him then just walk up and punch him in the face for me thanx! id do it but i have no way to go to his house right now, and i dont feel like getting arrested for going to far! if you know what i mean. cause ive already put enough people in the hospital, and i donbt feel like being arrested ne time soon for doing that again!