Thirty-Sixth Hope [video]
[For once in the greek tragedy that is Hope's life, he turns on the video feed on purpose. His face bears a fairly solemn expression. He takes a deep breath before speaking.]
Uh.... hey. A lot of you know this already but... my name's Hope Estheim, and I've been on this ship for over a year. I've made a lot of friends here, and I've even found a ( Read more... )
Uh.... hey. A lot of you know this already but... my name's Hope Estheim, and I've been on this ship for over a year. I've made a lot of friends here, and I've even found a ( Read more... )
Now you can never tell me you're not the strongest person I know.
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I still... didn't tell them everything. Someone who can use magic is dangerous enough, but.... I don't want people to think I'm gonna turn into some kind of monster any second. Even if I know I'm not... people are still gonna be scared.
[But he squeezes that hand like doing so gives him boundless reserves of strength... which it does.]
Besides.... my knees were shaking the whole time.
[He adds the tiniest of laughs.]
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[and upon realizing she's being a little hypocritical, given the secrecy of her own unnatural state of existence...]
...And you're a lot braver than me.
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I know. It's because of you guys that I was able to finally say it. You're all my strength and my courage. Especially you Xion.
[His warning bells go off at that last part. He didn't want to make her feel guilty.]
You don't need to tell anyone about that Xion. You're just a beautiful, wonderful girl who would do anything for her friends. That's all anyone needs to know about you, okay?
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I know. Thank you. I think I'll need a little more time than you to be able to share that with everybody... but this isn't about me. You're the important one here right now.
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You're always the most important thing in my life, Xion.
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You know what I mean.
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Yeah I do. Thanks Xion. I never would have been able to do this without you supporting me.
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[And his expression becomes somewhat more serious.]
So if something's bothering you... you know you can always come talk to me about it.
[Like, say.... your job?]
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[she doesn't want to bother him with that right now. she'd feel terrible burdening him with her issues when he's just made his big revelation...
... she's probably making it worse by not saying anything, isn't she?]
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...I know you're not happy with your job right now Xion. It's okay, you can talk about it. If anything I want to talk about something other than me right now...
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It's just... wrong. I know a lot of the missions here are strange and everything, but... there's nothing right about this one at all.
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...what? You kind of are!
Anyway, he returns that squeeze.]
Xion... if it really bothers you, then quit. Doing an embarassing job is one thing, but doing a job that really bothers you like this isn't right. I have a high paying job this month, I can support the both of us.
Besides... you used my guide to sign up for that job. It's my fault you're unhappy right now.
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a look of worry sneaks onto her face, replacing her uncomfortableness. she hadn't meant for the conversation to take this turn-though really, knowing Hope's personality, she should have expected something like it.]
Please don't blame yourself, Hope-it's not like you made it happen. You're at as much fault as I am... which means you're not at fault at all. I just... I don't want to put all the responsibility on you, though. That would bother me even more.
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Even if it isn't my fault, I still don't want to see you forcing yourself to do something like this. We have enough money saved up to handle you actually thinking about yourself for once. You took two jobs one month, remember? After everything you've done, and everything you still do for everbody else you can let yourself be a little bit selfish.
Besides, don't try and tell me you wouldn't say the exact same thing to me.
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