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I can't get my mind around this. I can't. I just want to die. It's not true and it can't be true. I can't deal with this I just fucking can't. It isn't true and I need some one to make it not be true
I am supposed to see her tomorrow, just tomorrow. Safely at my mom's ahead of the snow storm, tucked in tonight and I see them tomorrow. Just please? Can I see them tomorrow? I will give both legs, 1 kidney, half my liver and 20 years off my life... 30? 40? Please??? How about I just get to go bak to yesterday and make ONE phone call?
FUCK.
FUCK
There was an accident/ My grandparents were coming down to my mom's we were gojing to see them tomorrow. But this stupid fucking TRAIN. How can it be a fucking train?? My grandparents were coming down and I was going to see them tomorrow... just one fucking day away.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. No/ they got hit by a train and my gramma is dead and I don;t know how my grampa is and my gramma is dead. I never wished I could just close my eyes and makew ir all go awawy so bad. I wish I could just let go ad slip into oblivion.. but I can;t . It hurts so much I want to die.
I am supposed to see her tomorrow, just tomorrow. Safely at my mom's ahead of the snow storm, tucked in tonight and I see them tomorrow. Just please? Can I see them tomorrow? I will give both legs, 1 kidney, half my liver and 20 years off my life... 30? 40? Please??? How about I just get to go bak to yesterday and make ONE phone call?
FUCK.
FUCK
There was an accident/ My grandparents were coming down to my mom's we were gojing to see them tomorrow. But this stupid fucking TRAIN. How can it be a fucking train?? My grandparents were coming down and I was going to see them tomorrow... just one fucking day away.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. No/ they got hit by a train and my gramma is dead and I don;t know how my grampa is and my gramma is dead. I never wished I could just close my eyes and makew ir all go awawy so bad. I wish I could just let go ad slip into oblivion.. but I can;t . It hurts so much I want to die.