and all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
Be My Escape - Relient K
The rest of this post is completely unrelated to lyrics! Hahaha.
( Just going to try and articulate a few things. This is a terribly miserable update, I'm afraid. )
The rest of this post is completely unrelated to lyrics! Hahaha.
( Just going to try and articulate a few things. This is a terribly miserable update, I'm afraid. )
I suppose my best defense is that I hope it's pretty obvious that I'll always look out for you, I'll always care, in my way - just as I know you'll always look out for me. It doesn't exactly excuse me for being the kind of wretch who just ignores this for days though.
I don't know what to do to help, apart from saying that if you know of anything I can do, I'll do it like a shot. And I will distract you with anime and Spartacus and terrorising Drew. I think having space from your Dad will be good for you - just as long as he doesn't end up all but disappearing. Perhaps when you and Jimi are in the house, you can have a family dinner once a week so that your Dad and Charlie can see one another? I think Charlie's going to be okay. He's clever, he's keeping up with college, and he has an older sister who's always thinking of him. I know he hasn't had the most perfect teenage years, but all those things are going to put him on a decent footing...
The situation with your Mum is so terribly difficult. Even though she's aware of what she does, I do think making yourself talk to her about it might be a good idea. That doesn't mean scolding her. I just think something good might come out of an honest conversation.
Distancing yourself from something hurtful is a perfectly natural response. You shouldn't beat yourself up for doing it. The fact that you are so upset for it just shows how connected you do actually feel. You're not fooling yourself into thinking you're immune. And it's just like you to be constantly thinking of the best way you can help. That's good and wonderful - just try to acknowledge that there's a limit to what you can do; they're responsible for themselves as well. I know you know all this. I just want you to be told it. It come across differently when somebody else says it, I think.
Anyway, this has all probably been rubbish! If so, ignore it. :P Apart from this bit where I say that I love you, because that's true. ♥ (Forever and there is no escape.) Also, listen to Jenny. I haven't read what she's told you but... she's Jenny. It's probably going to be something sensible.
P.S.
You Are a Runner and I Am My Father's Son - Wolf Parade
This is a fairly relevant song that I really like. :B
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I wish I could say more, too, apart from that appreciate all your words. And you do so much for me already, you hopeless dope, the last thing you need to be doing is asking if there's any more. I am coming to see you in less than an hour, and I have total faith that we will both fail to say anything about our troubles (though I will undoubtedly complain about other things!). But that is okay, because I've known you far too long, I don't need to say things any more. You get it and comfort me anyway. ew.
I am basically saying that you are wonderful, and thank you always, and we have much not!speaking to do. I am looking forward to not!speaking to you all darn night, and coming away a much happier, calmer, and more emotionally satisfied person. Who needs words, huh? I ask you.
(.......... but if you want to talk that is obviously fine. I'M JUST TRYING TO SAY WE DON'T NEED WORDS TO LET EACH OTHER KNOW WE CARE, BUT I AM. NOT TRYING TO DISSUADE ACTUAL USE OF WORDS. this comment is basically a failure, I have no regrets >:O)
Love you. ♥
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