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Aug 07, 2013 00:35

I realize this about myself, that I am a highly impressional person. Probably a good deal moreso than most, not that I find much use in comparison.

I feel very lucky that I have people that I care about, that care about me, that interact with me, that are GOOD people. Creativity, intelligence, positive attitude, they've rubbed off on me a great deal, and I am a better person than I would be otherwise because of the people that are my friends.

But I am no rock. I am steady (I believe this to be the best compliment I've ever received), but I can and do waver. I tire. I rock at being a businessman, for about 20 minutes in a straight run. Then I need another reset, a break.

Being awesome resets me. Many of my friends act as a catalyst.

I mention this now because I've been at my new "training" job for about 2 whole months now (My how time flies). I find myself picking up attributes of my boss, who is a wonderful human being, a loveable oaf, and a precise, quick-witted, unflappable spinner of words in spontaneous situations. He's a true artist of debate utilizing correlation. It's his Jedi Mind Trick, his verbal judo. I see through it, but even in doing so, I wouldn't have the where-with-all to defend myself against him. I hope to take a bit of that with me, if I have the capacity. It may not be a good way to actually debate someone, but simply put, it can be very useful. However, a few of the easier to pick up aspects of his personality have already begun to mesh in me - and to me, it is unsavory.

I can't tolerate racism, even in joking, and the occasion anecdote involving demeaning or objectifying a person behind their back leaves me uncomfortable. Maybe I'd feel better if he were speaking intelligently, but most often he's offering his point of view in a very juvenile and crass sort of way.

Maybe it's because that's what he's used to dealing with- people that respond well to that sort of thing. Maybe he's found it to be a tool that tends to work well for him. Maybe in confidence, keeping squarely divided the walls of class or upper/middle/lower management/team members, all the world is one big locker room. Maybe it works well for a lot of social groups. But he's so much more intelligent and kind-hearted and good natured than JUST that. I just don't get it.

And I hope I don't absorb much of it.

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