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When you wake up tomorrow
You'll be all alone
All the love that we had
I have quickly outgrown
I wanted to stay
But I just couldn't do it
Couldn't stand there
And put you through it.
waking up alone has been the worst of it. i can go about my day fine as any other, but it's the getting out of bed part that's shown problematic, at least for me. it's like you open your eyes and you're surrounded in white, looking around for any semblance of life aside from the heart beating madly in your chest. you don't find it, so you close your eyes and fall back into slumber, and this repeats again and again. each time your eyes open again you're thinking "this isn't the reality that i knew and that i'm accustomed to" so another shot at going back and waking up new. it doesn't help.
it's a denial everyone goes through. you're not living in the reality god's chosen for you, though.
you're simply not the god you thought you were.
[i'm back. consider that last post an early punchline to the worst april fool's joke ever. i love you.]
You'll be all alone
All the love that we had
I have quickly outgrown
I wanted to stay
But I just couldn't do it
Couldn't stand there
And put you through it.
waking up alone has been the worst of it. i can go about my day fine as any other, but it's the getting out of bed part that's shown problematic, at least for me. it's like you open your eyes and you're surrounded in white, looking around for any semblance of life aside from the heart beating madly in your chest. you don't find it, so you close your eyes and fall back into slumber, and this repeats again and again. each time your eyes open again you're thinking "this isn't the reality that i knew and that i'm accustomed to" so another shot at going back and waking up new. it doesn't help.
it's a denial everyone goes through. you're not living in the reality god's chosen for you, though.
you're simply not the god you thought you were.
[i'm back. consider that last post an early punchline to the worst april fool's joke ever. i love you.]