wanderings
So my grades got posted finally and I actually did better than I thought I did. I did get an A in Comm 270 so it wasn't straight b's like I feared. So my GPA still took a hit but not as badly as I'd expected. Still, I need to get it up if I want any chance at sticking around for law school. I don't feel confident that a 3.35 is going to cut it.
The more I've been thinking about it the more I've been re-evaluating my plans for the next five years or so. The more I look at it the more I think I'm probably not ready to graduate next year. If I graduate next may I'll have to have a job or a place at a law school, and I don't realistically expect myself to be able to do either of the above within the next year; I simply don't have my shit together.
And I wonder, do I really want to have it together at this point in my life? I know another year of undergrad isn't going to thrill my parents because of the expense, especially if it's on top of law school. I was originally figuring they'd cope if it was because I was SBP or something that would give them similar bragging rights, but I don't really see that happening now, so who knows.
This is all a very frustrating position for me to find myself in. I know what I want to do,I know what my goals are, but I hate not being able to commit to a definite timeline for actually doing it. The lack of a timeline means no structure which means no motivation, which really bothers me.
I'm in NY right now; after I leave here I'll be in CLT for a few days and then I'll be heading back up to chapel hill/durham to take care of some stuff with work and hopefully nail down some logistics for the house and summer plans. I'll have to be up there for at least one of the next two weekends for work too, and then we move into the new place. So I'm making the most of this month between leases.
My mom told me my class ring got delivered while I've been in NY. I'm looking forward to seeing it and wearing it and all.
The thing is, when I ordered it, they had my year down as class of '08.
The more I've been thinking about it the more I've been re-evaluating my plans for the next five years or so. The more I look at it the more I think I'm probably not ready to graduate next year. If I graduate next may I'll have to have a job or a place at a law school, and I don't realistically expect myself to be able to do either of the above within the next year; I simply don't have my shit together.
And I wonder, do I really want to have it together at this point in my life? I know another year of undergrad isn't going to thrill my parents because of the expense, especially if it's on top of law school. I was originally figuring they'd cope if it was because I was SBP or something that would give them similar bragging rights, but I don't really see that happening now, so who knows.
This is all a very frustrating position for me to find myself in. I know what I want to do,I know what my goals are, but I hate not being able to commit to a definite timeline for actually doing it. The lack of a timeline means no structure which means no motivation, which really bothers me.
I'm in NY right now; after I leave here I'll be in CLT for a few days and then I'll be heading back up to chapel hill/durham to take care of some stuff with work and hopefully nail down some logistics for the house and summer plans. I'll have to be up there for at least one of the next two weekends for work too, and then we move into the new place. So I'm making the most of this month between leases.
My mom told me my class ring got delivered while I've been in NY. I'm looking forward to seeing it and wearing it and all.
The thing is, when I ordered it, they had my year down as class of '08.