Fear and self loathing
In less than 48 hours Cafe 56 will open with me as it's pastry chef, part of a team of just three people, one of which is an 18 year old girl working her first job. In slightly more than a month we have transformed this place into a beautiful restaurant space, not something that happens often. No one opens a restaurant in a month.
On my way to work today I crashed, emotionally. Fears started to overwhelm me and the tears came. I sat in the parking lot outside the restaurant shaking, crying, and full of self doubt. Now is the time I have to prove myself and I find myself wanting.. I am missing so many skills and techniques. The year out of the kitchen has taken it's toll.
I am so afraid I am going to fail...
On my way to work today I crashed, emotionally. Fears started to overwhelm me and the tears came. I sat in the parking lot outside the restaurant shaking, crying, and full of self doubt. Now is the time I have to prove myself and I find myself wanting.. I am missing so many skills and techniques. The year out of the kitchen has taken it's toll.
I am so afraid I am going to fail...