Crossroad
Midnight thoughts. It just dawned upon me that I am standing at an incredibly huge crossroad in my life. I feel like I have reached a defining moment in my life - in my hands are choices I have to make, and these decisions are going to drastically shape the remainder of my youth and possibly the rest of my life. Career. Relationships. Ministry opportunities.
Suddenly, I feel very much like a kid trapped in an adult's body. When I was younger, I would look up to all the twenty-somethings and label them MAN and WOMAN. Now that I'm twenty-three, I really don't see myself as a WOMAN, if y'know what I mean.. I feel like I'm still daddy's girl, still so childish, immature and playful at times.
The weight of these choices seem so heavy; the uncertainty, crazy. Yet, it's also a whole new level of exciting.. I can't see what's mapped out for me ahead, but God will give me enough light on my path to choose the next step. After all, a man plans his course but it's the Lord who establishes his steps...
Deep in my heart, I know that things are going to be okay eventually. And maybe it's even okay to make mistakes choosing the wrong path (though that wouldn't be most ideal..) Just gotta keep trusting that God is in control, and that He provides every need of mine even before I open my mouth to ask. He knows everything.. no part of me can be hidden from Him. And I know He's got my back. Everything's gonna be okay :)
Suddenly, I feel very much like a kid trapped in an adult's body. When I was younger, I would look up to all the twenty-somethings and label them MAN and WOMAN. Now that I'm twenty-three, I really don't see myself as a WOMAN, if y'know what I mean.. I feel like I'm still daddy's girl, still so childish, immature and playful at times.
The weight of these choices seem so heavy; the uncertainty, crazy. Yet, it's also a whole new level of exciting.. I can't see what's mapped out for me ahead, but God will give me enough light on my path to choose the next step. After all, a man plans his course but it's the Lord who establishes his steps...
Deep in my heart, I know that things are going to be okay eventually. And maybe it's even okay to make mistakes choosing the wrong path (though that wouldn't be most ideal..) Just gotta keep trusting that God is in control, and that He provides every need of mine even before I open my mouth to ask. He knows everything.. no part of me can be hidden from Him. And I know He's got my back. Everything's gonna be okay :)