Hopelessly Lost
This has been the wort day, week, month, year, lifetime ever for me. We are broke. We're talking negatives broke. I came up with a budget for us and after bills we have enough for basic groceries. This means we'll be buying cheap and there's no more sodas and eating out. I can live with that. It just sucks not having any breathing room in the budget.
I'm suppose to graduate in Dec. but I can't get into the class I need in order to graduate.
I'm trying to apply for a student loan to pay for all of this and FSU won't get back to me to let me know if I can do what I want to. If I can, it will be another month before I see the money.
With the schedule I have now, there's no way I can work unless it is midnight shift somewhere in retail or manufacturing. I want a job in my field an a midnight accounting job doesn't exist. I can drop one of the classes I have that I technically don't need to graduate so that I have a few days free to work. I just had the class on my schedule to boost my crappy gpa and I need it to sit for the cpa.
There are no Accounting jobs in Tallahassee. Yes, there are plenty of jobs for my major in South Florida and California. That doesn't help me at all. I need to go to the Career Center for help in that department.
On top of all of this, I just found out I probably won't have a babysitter. My mom is sending conflicting messages about watching Kaylee so I'm guessing she can't or doesn't want to do it. I can't afford a sitter.
I'm so angry right now b/c my parents were never there for me. They royally sucked. Never once have they paid for any part of my education. My mom did watch Kaylee the past year, but now she's even crapping out on me. I just want to go kick them in the ass b/c I shouldn't be worrying about some of these things. The money for my schooling should be there responsibility. Instead, they're too busy funding my brothers' pot farms and alcohol addictions.
I'm so lost right now. Everytime I think I find a way out the tunnel colapses on me. I've got two days to sort the rest of my life out.