little things, they take the biggest part of me
Tonight dani and i were supposed to go to alex's house. but we didn't really have rides. Also earlier that day, on the phone he sounded not all too excited about doing something tonight, so we felt imposing. Then i called to say that we werent going, and he was a bastard about it, i didnt understand, like i have spoken to u what twice this summer and u already are annoyed with me(this was actually in my head, not out loud)and then online he was a dick, and liek didnt answer and stuff, then said he was busy,and things srta resolved, so i feel better now. but liek, i dont know, iwas thinking like i have had this problem with alex before,me feeling self conscious about him not liking me.I dont know what it is about him, but i never feel worthy of him.and it really gets to me,like fuck u, all i have ever been is nice, and then he finds all these unknown reason's to hate me!ahhhh. but i'd like to make a shout out to my girl katya for her online assistance in all of my petty dilema's! thanx babe! I hate how sensitive i am, i really get upset easily, especially little things.(hence the subject title)well, on to last night... Dani,melissa,and i all made a video, our ussual saturday night activity. It was AWESOME! We danced, dressed up, had a fashion show, u know,regular video material, it was so much fun, we stayed up till like 5 30. we watched the emporer's new grove. oh wow, if u are looking for a few good laughs, RENT THIS MOVIE! and then today, zack saw part of this video. i dunno when we will next hear from zack...oh, but wait, we do have to get those pictures!!... well, before i go, remember this!, when things upset you, deal with it, dont sit and pout about it. That way it will just get to u and make u go crazy,and get u feeling depressed. You can't always assume the worst, just talk about it, u will find some things aren't always the way they apear.(thanx katya) it worked for me...