I just want to say.............
........That I really really hate this fucking town! Not a day goes by when I don't think to myself "Why do people even live here?!". I have to get out of here now! It's probably to the point where I don't care who I leave behind. Sure my friends might miss me, but it sometimes feels like they don't even really care about me. I'm dieing to move back to El Paso now. I don't think I can wait till the end of October. I'll kill myself by then. This town is shit, it deserves to be called a town because it's not enough people to make a city! I'm still kind of mad at my dad for having us move here. Sure it seemed like a good idea at the time, then three years later, he decides to quit. Now we have to pack all our stuff up again. At least I'll be happy to do it this time. And we better god damn fucking move too; I don't want to find out during the last week of October that we'll be here another year.
I also need to get away from all these religion freaks. Everything here revolves around the bible. It's so fucking annoying when I go to school and people have "God rocks!" on their backpacks and stuff. And then people telling me that Jesus makes everything better, yeah right. Like prayer helps either. When someone dies all of a sudden it's just "God works in mysterious ways". Everyone knows that people die because of old age, disease, or accidents. Maybe the one good thing about all these jesus freaks is that I get to say how fucking ridiculous religion is in my Pre-AP English class. Sure I never say anything to anyone in there, but inside I'm screaming it at the top of my lungs. I'm mostly just waiting for the right moment to shout it out. And the school always talks about how they can't talk about religion in school (except that class), but they bring along guest speakers who have "found jesus" and now their lives are all better and full of joy. Yes, I'm sure I'd be full of joy too if I went around the country talking in high schools. How in the fuck does anyone "find jesus" in the first place? Do they just go to church and it magically happens? I'm forced to go the fucking boring church every fucking Sunday and I sure as fuck haven't found anything.
I also need to get away from all these religion freaks. Everything here revolves around the bible. It's so fucking annoying when I go to school and people have "God rocks!" on their backpacks and stuff. And then people telling me that Jesus makes everything better, yeah right. Like prayer helps either. When someone dies all of a sudden it's just "God works in mysterious ways". Everyone knows that people die because of old age, disease, or accidents. Maybe the one good thing about all these jesus freaks is that I get to say how fucking ridiculous religion is in my Pre-AP English class. Sure I never say anything to anyone in there, but inside I'm screaming it at the top of my lungs. I'm mostly just waiting for the right moment to shout it out. And the school always talks about how they can't talk about religion in school (except that class), but they bring along guest speakers who have "found jesus" and now their lives are all better and full of joy. Yes, I'm sure I'd be full of joy too if I went around the country talking in high schools. How in the fuck does anyone "find jesus" in the first place? Do they just go to church and it magically happens? I'm forced to go the fucking boring church every fucking Sunday and I sure as fuck haven't found anything.