tAke Me As I Am
TaKe Me As I Am...hmmm...possible album title perhaps?
Actually, nah. Sounds too much like Ashlee (WAH WAH) simpson's "I AM ME"...i don't have that much against her btw, i actually think some of her songs are pretty descent.
Went out with Julia,Sarah and Erin for dinner at the C.C...got lucky on pokies...i won a measely fifteen bucks and erin scored seventy by only putting in one buck! gotta love those double features!
Now understand why pokies are extremely and utterly addictive. Decided to avoid pokies for at least a month.
Dinner was actually quite pleasant...pressure was off and i felt together for the whole evening...not one slight bit of uncomfort.
Although had to confront myself about a few things tonight when i got home. Went out with Mel for coffee before tea and it was truly amazing observing how i adjust to certain people...i mean, when im with julia and that it's like i'm completely different and it just really proved to myself that i still have this really boring hidden tendency to want to please everyone all the time, regardless of how much i feel i have gained in confidence. BLAH.
But i guess God will test us on the things we think we've got right. Unfortunately, i just seem to fail each time im tested.
I know im incredibly pathetic but i misss J. LOTS.
Which brings me to a reasonable question....
IS THERE EVER A TIME WHERE IM NOT MISSING HER?!!!
I know i shouldn't miss anyone because i shouldnt feel like i NEED anyone...but i admit it...i dooo! and im not sure if its cuz im heading for that time of the month but i honestly feel sooo alone i want to cry!...and this is indeed an odd thing to say when i have been out to dinner with friends!
J didn't write to me today and i thought about ringing her but chickened out. I wish she would ring me.
why oh why can't sunday come sooner???
Nothing planned for rest of week except I am seeing Jess on Friday. Should be good to catch up with her as i have a soft spot for that girl, i do.
i feel like its my personal duty to watch out for her.
College goes back on Wednesday and I don't know how i feel about that just yet. Firstly it screams TOO BLOODY SOOON...but then again wasn't it me just wishing the week away a paragraph ago^? sigggh.
Hopefully i will get2 see the archibald with J on Friday because shes taking her mum to Sydney. YAY can't wait to go to the gallery again...it was the best!! woot.
Ok, well beddie byes is calling. Emmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...coooooooommmmmeeee tooooo beeeeeeeddddd.
can't argue with the talking sheets.
<3 em
Actually, nah. Sounds too much like Ashlee (WAH WAH) simpson's "I AM ME"...i don't have that much against her btw, i actually think some of her songs are pretty descent.
Went out with Julia,Sarah and Erin for dinner at the C.C...got lucky on pokies...i won a measely fifteen bucks and erin scored seventy by only putting in one buck! gotta love those double features!
Now understand why pokies are extremely and utterly addictive. Decided to avoid pokies for at least a month.
Dinner was actually quite pleasant...pressure was off and i felt together for the whole evening...not one slight bit of uncomfort.
Although had to confront myself about a few things tonight when i got home. Went out with Mel for coffee before tea and it was truly amazing observing how i adjust to certain people...i mean, when im with julia and that it's like i'm completely different and it just really proved to myself that i still have this really boring hidden tendency to want to please everyone all the time, regardless of how much i feel i have gained in confidence. BLAH.
But i guess God will test us on the things we think we've got right. Unfortunately, i just seem to fail each time im tested.
I know im incredibly pathetic but i misss J. LOTS.
Which brings me to a reasonable question....
IS THERE EVER A TIME WHERE IM NOT MISSING HER?!!!
I know i shouldn't miss anyone because i shouldnt feel like i NEED anyone...but i admit it...i dooo! and im not sure if its cuz im heading for that time of the month but i honestly feel sooo alone i want to cry!...and this is indeed an odd thing to say when i have been out to dinner with friends!
J didn't write to me today and i thought about ringing her but chickened out. I wish she would ring me.
why oh why can't sunday come sooner???
Nothing planned for rest of week except I am seeing Jess on Friday. Should be good to catch up with her as i have a soft spot for that girl, i do.
i feel like its my personal duty to watch out for her.
College goes back on Wednesday and I don't know how i feel about that just yet. Firstly it screams TOO BLOODY SOOON...but then again wasn't it me just wishing the week away a paragraph ago^? sigggh.
Hopefully i will get2 see the archibald with J on Friday because shes taking her mum to Sydney. YAY can't wait to go to the gallery again...it was the best!! woot.
Ok, well beddie byes is calling. Emmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...coooooooommmmmeeee tooooo beeeeeeeddddd.
can't argue with the talking sheets.
<3 em