Ryan's Here
YAY! Ryan Gamble is here! He got here around 2AM. He looks so different because he's cleaned shaved and his hair is grown out and it's his natural color. He looks so cute. We sat up and watched Full Metal Alchemist which is a really good show. I skipped both my classes because I won't really get a chance to hang out with him for God knows how long. We watch Dead Like Me and I would love to try to see more episodes. He went to check in his hotel and I showered and then we proceeded to Great Wall. He dropped me off at work and I told him I'll see him tomorrow. Came home, went to Paglai's with Cherylee, Ryan, Annie, and Joan, came home, attempted to clean my room, watched Real World, and now I'm in my room stalling from studying. Adam finally found a boy not too far from his area. They're actually meeting up tomorrow. I'm happy for him, but at the same time a little jealous. I'm starting to notice that I look smaller now. I also feel my confidence rising, but I'm not really too happy about that. I hate the fact that my confidence is rising at the same time I'm getting smaller. I was always the same person, there should be no reason to why I become more confident as I become thinner. I don't wanna be a superficial person that believe you become a better person the smaller you become because that thinking is total and utter bullshit.