[OOC] An auspicious occasion!

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Thanks in no small part to CFUW and Dean Winchester, Gant has broken 1,000 comments! Time for a Relationship/First Impressions Meme!

Feel free to ask for Kaiji's impressions/thoughts as well, if it's been a while or you didn't ask before.

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[rubs hands together]

As I said before, Dean is the best Christmas present Gant could hope for. He's easily ruffled, he's emotionally vulnerable, he's massively traumatized, he's fiercely loyal, he's easy to read, and he is fantastically good-looking. Gant is all about possessing and dominating and controlling people, but only when he can do it without them fully realizing what he's doing. He wants to possess Dean in some way, because Dean has so much will and spirit and strength that Gant just can't help himself, but just setting out to capture Dean overtly is not nearly so fun as getting Dean to come to him.

Perhaps what Gant wasn't expecting is that he's also grown rather fond of Dean. Gant isn't a heartless man, and it'd be difficult for anyone not to empathize with Dean after fully understanding everything the poor boy's gone through. And he's moved somewhat by how much Dean wants to do good things, and he has done good things, and he's got so much good in him -- but doesn't see himself as a good person. That really resonates with Gant, because Gant loves the law and loves good things and will do just about anything to preserve peace and goodness as he sees them -- but he also holds no illusions that he himself is a good person. The main difference between him and Dean is that Gant doesn't feel guilty about it. He regrets that he had to do those evil things, but he feels no remorse, because, well, he feels he had to do them. And if that makes him an evil person, well, that's the price you pay sometimes in the service of good.

That's how he knows that Dean still is a good person, because Dean still feels bad about the things that he's done. In a strange way, Gant loves Dean for that.

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I like you're saying you love me because I'm a hot shmook.

DO YOU WANT A RETURN?

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Yes please! Also, what's a shmook?

[jerkchester]

Cross between a sap and a woobie.

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The more you know~!

[jerkchester]

I probably spelled it wrong though.

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I said it before a while back; Gant just plain outright confuses Dean. Because you don't be nice to Dean or talk about his personality or the kind of person he is without some kind of motive going on. And Dean's aware that Gant is playing with his head, but he doesn't understand what Gant would be getting out of it. Demons play headgames! Angels play headgames! Why the hell is there a human playing headgames with him boggles his mind. And while Dean has an outward ego he maintains (so that people don't go calling him on his self-esteem issues), it's very, very hard for him to dismiss what Gant says because they're not the typical compliments and they get under Dean's skin.

That being said, Gant did actually help Dean out during the ribbon thread and Dean's not the kind of person to ignore a favour when bestowed on himself, so he'll be keeping a tab to see when he can repay that off. And the fact that Gant didn't impose too strongly on Dean and didn't force him into anything was also something unexpected and it threw Dean off completely. SO REALLY HE'S STILL ABSOLUTELY CONFUSED. But there is a game going on here and Dean doesn't want to lose, refuses to lose to Gant and that means getting any advantage he can get his hands on (re: little. Dean doesn't have anything so far) and trying to come on top, without feeling like he's on a tailspin with no direction.

UH TLDR; Gant confuses the fuck out of Dean and Dean hates/likes/doesn't know what the fuck to do.

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I think the fact that he's playing at all means Gant kind of wins already.

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