I was so HAPPY but that all changed!
You say to stop cutting myself for darren! yeah right i dont hvae him no more! he dont wanna talk to me! you say to stop for my freinds, no one gives a rats ass about me! no one understands how it feels to be me! i really dont wanna be here anymore! i feel like im in the woods with no one around and no where to go! i cant stand it! im to lost and confused to see straight! school is fucked my famliy id fucked and well i cant keep anyone that i truley care about becasue i seem to drive them all away! if its not by stealing from people i care about or gettin drunk one night with out some people bein there! i fuck everyone over! i cant seem to keep anythin for long! i need help but no one can help! if this is how im suposed to live my life then mabey i shouldn't! WOW life is so cruel! i cant explain it! i finally got everythin together and it feel apart just becasue of one day! if i could take that back i would! i never wanted to hurt anyone! expecialy the one person that i love with all my heart! if i cant have him then i dont want to have anything! i love him to much to let go! i dont want anythin besides him! parts of me wishes that i never had been born but other parts of me wish that i had enogh guts to kill myself but i dont! if i did then i would have already done it! do i now decide that i have to hurt myself in some way, i have to make up to everyone and punish myself! im leaving now! i have to go think!