Finally Updating!

[gangsterbiyatch]

Hey....I have absolutley nothing intersting to write and am completely bored. Hmmmm I haven't talked to celine in for ever. I feel like she's like gone and it's weird cuz she lives right across the street. But I've been trying to contact her and I get no response so I'll just chill til I do. It seems like Steph and Celine are so sad lately and that makes me sad. And what makes it even worse is that I never know y they are sad because I can never talk to them and if I try to ask questions then I just feel really nosey. So I end up being kinda left in the dark and not knowing what to do. Even when I talk to one of them on-line I feel like I don't even have anything to talk to them about anymore. Like our conversations are so like o hi ummm so...wat's up. Those r the kind of converstaions I have with acquaintences not my two best friends in the whole effin world. It just makes me so sad sometimes. And we try to hard to spend more time with eachother but it seems like it never even works out. I wish there were three days in a weekend. School should just be 4 days long and 3 days of the weekend. Then there would be more time to spend with them. I would like dedicate a day to them. I just hate it so much. It's so annoying. I just been seeing ppl at school and that's it but that's not enough. Schools been so boring lately. I hate being back in school regularly. I remember how boring it is and how much I hate it. The people and the classes just get so boring after like 1 day. It's like for a day it's fine cuz youre just kind of catching up with everyone again. But then you remember how unbelievably boring it gets. Oh I don't like esu anymore. It's finally over. I still think that he is very cute and it's nice to be able to say hi to him and everything but I realized that it was getting no where. If I just kept liking him I would just keep saying hi to him and that's it. Like we don't even make the effort to have conversations with eachother anymore. It's not even really like a friendship. It's just a nothing...like just saying hi to someone. It was just getting so meaningless. Before i would get like excitied seeing him in the hall and it was like woohoo I found him but now he's always around so it just becomes like oo look it's esu. And then he is getting louder and that kind of ruins his appeal in a way. It's like what celine went through with fp or what steph went through with enron. little things about them just start to annoy u a lot. Grrr now I have no reason to go to school. I have to find someone new to like. It's so sad that since the people who I hang out with aren't all that much my friends and I hate other people in my school....the only thing that has been keeping me happy, in a good mood, and goin to school lately was esu. And now that i don't like him anymore I have nothing. Well whtvr. I'll try to find new inspiration.

I picked out new glasses today and I will be getting them in like 2 weeks. that's what I love about eye appointments. My eye sight always gets worse since I have astigmatism(is that hwo u spell it) and so I get new glasses. It's like gettin a new hair cut. It's so much fun. I love my new glasses. i can't wait until I can go pick them up. Well that's all for today. It was fun updating.