painful day
well this week hasn't been the best for me. on monday me and gary broke up. i think it was wrong of me to bring it up when he was on vacation but i didn't want to he like forced it out and he didn't seem to mind.. he was like oh well i knew i knew.... it still hurts. i mean i loved him soo much. i gave uup so much for him and i can't believe that it is over. i mean he was so good to me and my family and i will miss him so much but i think that this is good for me. he was begining to become like over protective and i missed him being the same as we were. i missed out on somethings but being with him helped me so much and i wish that we could talk more and we could stay friends but i highly doubt that that will be. i love his family too and i hope that they don't hate me... out of all of this though i think that the thing that bothers me the most is that my mom thinks that i broke up with him for andrew which is soo not true. andrew used to like me in like september and he told me that we could do something and no one needed to know. i could have done something then.. i mean gay didn't know him. but i didn't because i loved gary. when me and gary started going out i felt so loved and so important and i felt like he would support me in anything.and then he started to act like he wanted me to choose him over school. and i cant do that. i started to miss hanging with my friends and he didn't really want me around any of my guy ones and i kinda of missed being free.. but i feel so terrible i hope that he is okay he seems fine but i don't know.. i am just so sad and confused.. jenna, angel and andrew are helping me and i love them all for it. i mean non of them have to care and i love each and everyone of them...but i hope when he comes today to get his stuff i don't freak out and i don't cry... but i don't know i kinda don't wanna see him.. but i think that would be the best thing to do. well i think i will go think now... I LOVE U... JANE AND MS.LONGBOTTOM.. OH AND MOLE