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just breathe.
its what ive begun to tell myself alot. not that i have troubles breathing or anything
I went for a walk tonight then layed by my pool, all for about 60 mins. I thought. alot. This could be heaven or hell. and im making it hell. Everything. I think i might have an anxiety disorder or maybe and anger problem. Not that my anger is anything to be compared to say Tommys, but its some where up there at times. but mostly its just at my family. Honestly, who needs the TV up that loud? so they can hear it while their at fucking taco bell? jesus.
Im so exited to leave. California here i come. a week for just me. No obligations.
not
one.
thank you lord.
For a second today, maybe 5000 seconds, i thought about what it would be like to be dead. not to be dead, but if i died. I hate sounding all emo and dramatic and gayyyyyy. but i really did think that. and i wondered what people would have to say about me. it really made me wonder.
but then i got over it cuz i have ADD and a short attention span. hah
Im possibly seeing zack on thursday. which exites me cuz i kinda miss that lil guy. love it<3
and tomarrow i might go to the mall. yet again with black josh. but hes goin early. like 11 ish. i dunno about all that jazz. im not a morning person soooo ill think about it.
an old man today called me baby at work.
and some lady thought i was on my way to college.
people. hah
that lady was like (out of no where mind u, i was giving her change to her) so ur off to college soon right? i was like uhm, no ill be a jr at penn. and she was like oh goodness darling, well i wish u the best of luck to you.
she was the sweetest lady. a bit misunderstood as to how old i actually am. but sweet.
These two books i have been reading, My friend Leonard, and A million tiny pieces. I really enjoy. i generally hate reading cuz i get bored easy with it. but these, its almost like, i can get away from my real life. and pretend for a second it doesnt suck.
They are about this guy, james who has a major drug additcion and wakes up in a plane iwth no money and doesn know how he got there, and right now hes in a detox center and is going threw with drawls, and the other book, My friend leonard is the second book to a Million little pieces and hes out of jail and the detox center and is just getting better.
I think i like them so much, is cuz that shit really does happen to some. and his life. like so far sucks. absolutly sucks and it makes my 16 year old girl drama seem like nothing. and i love it. I recomend them to all of you.
well kids
im feelin ok for right now
lets not let that end.
im out.
<33
its what ive begun to tell myself alot. not that i have troubles breathing or anything
I went for a walk tonight then layed by my pool, all for about 60 mins. I thought. alot. This could be heaven or hell. and im making it hell. Everything. I think i might have an anxiety disorder or maybe and anger problem. Not that my anger is anything to be compared to say Tommys, but its some where up there at times. but mostly its just at my family. Honestly, who needs the TV up that loud? so they can hear it while their at fucking taco bell? jesus.
Im so exited to leave. California here i come. a week for just me. No obligations.
not
one.
thank you lord.
For a second today, maybe 5000 seconds, i thought about what it would be like to be dead. not to be dead, but if i died. I hate sounding all emo and dramatic and gayyyyyy. but i really did think that. and i wondered what people would have to say about me. it really made me wonder.
but then i got over it cuz i have ADD and a short attention span. hah
Im possibly seeing zack on thursday. which exites me cuz i kinda miss that lil guy. love it<3
and tomarrow i might go to the mall. yet again with black josh. but hes goin early. like 11 ish. i dunno about all that jazz. im not a morning person soooo ill think about it.
an old man today called me baby at work.
and some lady thought i was on my way to college.
people. hah
that lady was like (out of no where mind u, i was giving her change to her) so ur off to college soon right? i was like uhm, no ill be a jr at penn. and she was like oh goodness darling, well i wish u the best of luck to you.
she was the sweetest lady. a bit misunderstood as to how old i actually am. but sweet.
These two books i have been reading, My friend Leonard, and A million tiny pieces. I really enjoy. i generally hate reading cuz i get bored easy with it. but these, its almost like, i can get away from my real life. and pretend for a second it doesnt suck.
They are about this guy, james who has a major drug additcion and wakes up in a plane iwth no money and doesn know how he got there, and right now hes in a detox center and is going threw with drawls, and the other book, My friend leonard is the second book to a Million little pieces and hes out of jail and the detox center and is just getting better.
I think i like them so much, is cuz that shit really does happen to some. and his life. like so far sucks. absolutly sucks and it makes my 16 year old girl drama seem like nothing. and i love it. I recomend them to all of you.
well kids
im feelin ok for right now
lets not let that end.
im out.
<33