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Been doing alot of thinking lately.... its sad when you realize you have alot of regrets and hate bottled up deep inside. A big part of me wants to blame others but I cant... I am responsible for the many problems in my life. Part of me really wants to list all my regrets but there is not enough time or space in this life to acknowledge all the things in ym life. But I can start....
1- I regret that I will never see Disneyland or Disneyworld. Mostly because it will only remind me of broken promises made and a friend lost.
2- I regret not being the man I could be for all the women Ive loved and the fact I wasnt what they wanted or needed.
3- I regret not staying in school and making sumthin of myself.
4- I regret being a disappointment to my mother and father.
5- I regret being a bad friend.
6- I regret being me.
7- I regret only falling for women who cant be only for me. I also regret not having the guts to tell them this and to let myself be used and walked over.
8- I regret moving away from Vancouver.
9- I regret my low self-confidence.
10- I regret that I regret so much.
I could go on but there is so much stuff and so little time. Its time I get up and try to make sumthin of myself. Need to find 2800 dollars to pay back the school so i can go back. Where Ill get the money I dont know. But first I need a job and an apartment. I need to stop mooching off Chris and Mic and start providing. Im 24 years old... the males in my family tend to die in the 45-50 year old range which means Im somewhere in the halfway point in my life. Id always dreamed id go to college, get married, have children and all of that is slipping away.
1- I regret that I will never see Disneyland or Disneyworld. Mostly because it will only remind me of broken promises made and a friend lost.
2- I regret not being the man I could be for all the women Ive loved and the fact I wasnt what they wanted or needed.
3- I regret not staying in school and making sumthin of myself.
4- I regret being a disappointment to my mother and father.
5- I regret being a bad friend.
6- I regret being me.
7- I regret only falling for women who cant be only for me. I also regret not having the guts to tell them this and to let myself be used and walked over.
8- I regret moving away from Vancouver.
9- I regret my low self-confidence.
10- I regret that I regret so much.
I could go on but there is so much stuff and so little time. Its time I get up and try to make sumthin of myself. Need to find 2800 dollars to pay back the school so i can go back. Where Ill get the money I dont know. But first I need a job and an apartment. I need to stop mooching off Chris and Mic and start providing. Im 24 years old... the males in my family tend to die in the 45-50 year old range which means Im somewhere in the halfway point in my life. Id always dreamed id go to college, get married, have children and all of that is slipping away.