"i'm just a poor boy. i need no sympathy, because i'm easy come easy go, little high little low..."
man, these last few days, i've just been down in the dumps. it started friday when i got home. all of the company vans were gone. that just killed me. my sister had told me all week that it would happen, but until it did, i didn't care. it just made me think about my dad, losing little pieces of him, etc. this greiving thing is not fun. lots of ups and downs. my sister and matt w both asked me why i was so quiet. they think it's because of emily or something, but it's not. it's much more obscure than that. those damn vans. i washed, waxed, swept out, and drove all of them at one point or another. now...they're gone. they symbolized so much to me. damn those vans!!! :) so, for those people who have asked and/or noticed my silence these last few days, it was because of those vans. i didn't tell you because i knew you'd laugh. then, i'd just get more quiet. little stuff like that kills me, and i can't tell anyone in person, because i don't want them to worry or think that i'm depressed or something like that. I'M NOT. just sad...lonely...and missing my old man.
have a good one, everybody :)
have a good one, everybody :)